i nearly got killed by cops being arrested for my darkweb business

KILLED

then i spent a week chained to a stretcher in hospital with 4 broken ribs and 24-7 cops watching tv and sitting outside smoking cigarettes and constantly talking with the lights always on, and i had to beg the doctors to let me go to the prison where i would actually be able to sleep, it was sleep torture

then i was stuck in a cell for 3 months with a bunch of little algerian and moroccan petty criminals who were drinking a dozen coffees a day and talking to 3 in the morning, being fed absolute garbage, cold food that sat in the hallway down near the guards offices for usually 3 hours before it came to us, ...

idk what to say man, it's fine to be idealistic about sticking it to the man but they can do some real damage to you it's not bootlicking and would you say anything different it was about going to russia? where have you been? have you been in jail? was it just dumb shit or was it dangerous shit to be doing?

and i was an individual, no little children who were going to be denied their father for a decade, idk what am i supposed to say, is it licking boots to stay away from nazi germany circa 1939 as a jew instead of standing up to those mean nazis with their sturmgewehrs and their jackboots and let children suffer through this as well

be realistic

better to fight from a better position and to live another day than to be a fucking hero