I always tell myself the survivor guilt is illogical, but still a very real feeling. It’s haunting. And can hold us back from living if we let it.

Doesn’t mean we won’t feel it though.

On the other end of this, I’d have people hesitate about coming into detox to get sober. Like, why should I get sober? It takes a bed from „someone who needs it more.” Which is impossible to quantify, totally unfair and often a copout.

As a professional, I would have to triage sometimes and decide who got the last bed. It’s like playing God and choosing who is most in danger…

These aren’t easy choices. And they make us human. It’s never easy. ☹️