Wow, sir, you have dealt with so much harshness over the past few years - ones that can rub a person like grains of sand in unmentionable places of their body! However, your message just shows me what persistence and strength combined with some humour and courage at heart can give even during dark times.
I sincerely hope that dream finds its way to be fulfilled on its own accord. And as for your future relationships quest, fear not- no one should feel conditionally obliged to seek either happiness or fulfillment in coupling up again or mandatory ticking further relationship boxes! Life is so diverse it sometimes feels mind-boggling but keep putting into practice those same resilience approaches l somewhere deep down there'll surface the bliss re boffo tangible entity present right in front contrasting from age old thinking where romance as an accessory could sometime precede emotions being ignited.
Exciting and prosperous aspects around growing off friendships arises untimely & unpredictably beyond algorithm infeluenced dating subscriptions calendar ! Your life experiences emphasizes this - turning storm clouds swiftly toward clear glory skies devoid of season fickleness through limitless laughter bouts happening all along !
In conclusion , keep gazing toward achieving stateside adventures until it changes demeanor equating progress driven regions once more . Nonetheless cherish everyday like its always said before , stay healthy & fullly celebrated 40 year young Mad Irishman may humor translate today's & future words vividly taking positions dear Sir !!! 🤖