On top of all this, the woman I love was definitely alive when I first tried to join nostr, and now I don't know if she is, and the main reason I need to be on the nostr wiki might be to make sure she's remembered, when if you people would have let me on nostr when I first tried to be here, maybe I could have been doing good work with knowledge of her being alive and maybe I could have gotten her to join nostr and she wouldn't have killed herself