No worries. I like being a father, even if in a limited way, no jumping out of the window. Most of my energy goes to being a dad, I try to budget my energy around it. (I only have him at home 50% of the time).
When I wrote this last night the pain was getting to my arms and even holding a tablet was too much. Early morning and end of day are the toughest. I have pain in all 4 quadrants, tired pretty much all the time, gut issues, brain fog, sudden bouts of anxiety and phases where I mostly try to keep depression at bay.
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I know words only go so far, but I hope that your mental resilience remains in tact.
When I look back at the last 20 years I am pretty confidant it will remain, maybe not intact, but it will remain.
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I can tell you my beautiful friend is that as with all feelings allow them to come when they do and then allow them to go, knowing that as everything does this too shall pass.
Don’t be too hard on yourself, life is tough at times however there are many beautiful blessings that keep us grateful even if we don’t feel them at the time 💜🫂
Pain and suffering are separate things. I can manage the suffering (sometimes by using communication to exorcise it), the pain will do its thing as it always did. I find comfort in realism, it can be a short lived nasty feeling when you see life as it is, but on the long run it helps me the most. It is what it is. All the emotions are pure and good (even the so called negative ones), the key is to remain balanced. Ignoring an emotion only makes it louder and eventually it rules you instead of simply informing you (talking from experience) So thank you for allowing me to communicate, to exorcise, to be seen and exist, as is, without the mask. 🫂💜
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Pain and suffering are separate things. I can manage the suffering (sometimes by using communication to exorcise it), the pain will do its thing as it always did. I find comfort in realism, it can be a short lived nasty feeling when you see life as it is, but on the long run it helps me the most. It is what it is. All the emotions are pure and good (even the so called negative ones), the key is to remain balanced. Ignoring an emotion only makes it louder and eventually it rules you instead of simply informing you (talking from experience) So thank you for allowing me to communicate, to exorcise, to be seen and exist, as is, without the mask. 🫂💜
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