Holy shit! You win some terrible ex award. 🏆 No wonder the kids had issues.
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That's just 1 ex.
Oh honey who are you dating? And what kind of crazy are you bringing to the table?
They're never crazy when I'm with em🤷🏽 it's always after we break up that their life takes a crazy turn.
HS sweetheart, without writing you a novel...
Went from full ride scholarship at Harvard to stripping in the city of industry after spending 3 months in jail🤷🏽
As for me, yeah I definitely think I'm done kind of crazy, but I don't think I'm a hurtful or drive you crazy kind of way? I'm more spiritual, artsy, express yourself, be as weird as possible kind of way🤷🏽
Astrology is a lot of take the meanings that stick and not the ones that don't do a lot of people call it mumbo jumbo, but if it helps them why not🤷🏽 but I'm an aquarius, with a lot of Capricorn in my chart. Which means Saturn and Uranus have giant pulls over various parts of my life and mind, this was explained to me once that I'm basically walking karma🤷🏽 fuck with me and shit doesn't turn out well for you. Not that I do anything specifically, but that I put out a lot of positive and good into the world so the universe tends to want to give me back what I put out.
Which is probably also why the relationship issues. I'm in WANT so the universe gives me more WANT instead of have.
Huh I wonder what would happen if you focused on the love you have
Maybe.
I was always told. You need to focus on yourself. It learn to live yourself. Which I think I do🤷🏽
But yeah a lesson I've learned over and over and over in life is don't care what people think. People like me better when I do what I want 🤷🏽
So I've been kind of just not caring since this most recent ex. Not looking or trying like at all. And I've actually had pretty ok luck with people coming up to be instead. It's flattering and I know they're actually interested I guess rather than the 50/50.
Danny Trejo once said "Son, you're the tequila, not the chaser."
That Danny Trejo quote is 🔥 I will say on reflection tequila that your shooting and need a chaser with is not the best tequila. I’d rather be better sipped.
I think the way most people go about learning to love themselves is bs. Love and relationships don’t happen in isolation. I do think the society we live in places too much emphasis on romantic love. Sometimes people need to step back from dating. They can still practice their ability to give and receive love in other relationships. I guess I default to the idea, for it is in giving, we receive.
Danny Trejo quote may or may not be made up🤷🏽 but someone said it?!
But I took not being the chaser to mean don't go out and go after it so hard. The people want the tequila whether they're shooting or sippin🤷🏽
That second paragraph his me right here 🖤 I need to ponder that 🖤🤍
Like all my art is basically about that. Ideals, wishes, dreams, and ofuscations of things long past🤷🏽 boiled down to one word, Love.
I’ve been single for a while so I should probably make a conscious effort to date. It’s exhausting. Where I’m currently located the dating pool is more like a mud puddle. Also I would like to relocate. So it just seems rude to date here.
I want.
But exhaustion is a good word.
Same here, but it's a dating ocean full of Communists that don't know they're Communists. I'm like a 1%er here. Looking at moving to the tropics soon. 6 month timeline.