I can't remember ever terrorizing man, but I was "obliged" to have a more masculine energy through out life, all I achieved, I achieved alone with no support...so I see myself, in past, more like the negative masculine aspect you described...but not anymore. By choice, I choose to desengage instead of being nasty to others. Life is already hard. Like TheNoshole I have a childlike approach to life, hence the video. Lol