Relevant. I feel a need to rant a bit after reading that note about losing opportunities.
I'm being gangstalked by folks who have raped, drugged, and exploited me. Folks who are violating my life and privacy on the daily since 2021.
They take every opportunity to judge the fact that over four years I went from peaceful and joyful kindness to not giving a fuck, experiencing debilitating depression, and losing my shit more often than ever in my life combined.
I went from making massive progress to a slow crawl through the muck of debilitating depression, suicidality, and severely disregulated emotional states from progressive isolation, gaslighting, rape, being drugged, having my privacy violated daily and escalated stalking to the point of death threats.
There are 9 cameras in my apartment right now that I did not know were there until recently. There's cameras in my bedroom and bathroom.
I have brain damage. Executive function deficits and a few other issues. I can not control my emotions and am NOT responding to their harm with legal action and law suits, but instead with anger, rumination, and tears. Taking a legal route hurts a lot more than just them and I can't bring myself to do that. Instead of doing the right thing, these people just keep doubling down.
The people doing this to me are in positions of public trust. I loved, admired and respected these people. It has been gut wrenching.
They want me to be calm and graceful while they exploit me for personal and financial gain like a damn dairy cow. They want me to be gracious and peaceful while they violate modesty and privacy. They want me to accept being violated and exploited with a smile.
Abuse is not an opportunity.
If a woman has to allow people to violate, lie about, exploit and harm her in order to have an opportunity... Then there is a way bigger problem than losing control of emotions in isolation, in the "privacy" of her home.
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