Ah okay, thanks for clarifying. I have only found God very recently and have said and done some pretty blasphemous things in my past.
Discussion
If you’ve found Him, then that’s all that matters. We all have doubts, struggles, and questions, and that’s okay.
Side note— Really contemplated where to respond to you note. Glad I followed through. 🫂
Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, in the context of that verse, is typically understood as rejection of God's forgiveness. Obviously one who rejects forgiveness can't experience God's mercy, which we need for salvation. Anyone who repents and seeks forgiveness can receive mercy, regardless of past sin.