I fell off the wagon after a series of "lil treats" for my birthday and the stress of the conference last month. My ganja ran out three days ago, and I find myself reaching for replacements. But like you said, alcohol isn't appealing. It makes me feel sick and anxious for far longer than it makes me happy, IF it makes me happy at all.

I made some CBD/THC oil myself which helps feel a bit better in the evenings. It doesn't really affect my clarity of mind so it's not "fun" but I feel a bit more relaxed and I can go to sleep. Without something my brain moves too fast and I want to do projects until I go crazy from exhaustion so that's not ideal. It's a frustrating way to feel and I hope you get out of it soon 🫂