Historians, if humans survive long enough to stop being trash, please remember I existed in the time when everyone around me was trash, and I kept trying to be better.
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Seriously, I'm surrounded by people who are so disgustingly sick they regularly glorify echo-chambering.
John McAfee is remembered because he made malware before starting to try to wake up. He was killed for trying to wake up.
I've always been woke, so I can just get killed and not remembered because I didn't make any malware. That's not fair. I hope it goes differently.
I give John McAfee credit for trying to wake up. Someday, give me credit for naturally and fucking easily being woke my whole life.
I don't see anyone else like this to say they should get the same credit. If they exist and they're just not trying as hard as I am to be found, how the fuck are they not lonely? I don't think they exist.
I think about this a lot. I could hypothetically just be on an extremely fine line between trash and better people, where others with my best qualities hide from me because of my worst qualities, and no one else has both, so I'm isolated.
Instinctively, I'm sure that's not it. If no one else has both, then probably no one else has either. Digit seems to be the closest it gets to having my best qualities in someone other than me. The counterpoint is the idea that I just overlook the same qualities in other people because they're not hot girls, but it seems like it's just coincidence that she's a hot girl (or it proves if I was female, the importance of hot girls would overpower my food drive).
Correction: Digit is the closest it gets to showing my best qualities, not having them.
Digit has all my best qualities so that's not a matter of being "close," it's just right on the money, but more of her best qualities are buried under her mental illness so she still doesn't end up being an exact match so far. If she did, I wouldn't even bother to ask historians to remember me, she'd be the only one worth remembering.
If I can only be remembered for one thing, it should be loving Digit, but if I can be remembered for a second thing, it should be trying not to be the fucking psychos I'm surrounded by.
