Does read to me as you maybe didn't find the purpose of starting your new habbit of not drinking.
'Suffering is for()getting the purpose.' as said by nostr:nprofile1qqs2z604x59mu2crj8u87x5txnckgamvylz7ed2w4ghhmem2vw27sfcpr9mhxue69uhhyetvv9ujuumwdae8gtnnda3kjctv9ugdxf4r
I've also read that from Eckart Tolle and Michael A. Singer. It seems obvious, but it's hard to commit to imo.