I think I’m in the same boat as you. After some reflection, I think I’ve narrowed in a bit more on the feeling.
This was a sharp reminder that we are truly at war. Deep down, we’ve always known it, but this moment settled it.
It started out as memes with Pepe jokes about psyops. Then it became civic resistance by refusing to comply with the state’s mandates. But now it’s different. We’ve crossed into a stage where memeing and opting out aren’t enough.
The Kirk murder is a wake-up call that these psychopaths will not let us simply do our own thing. They will not let us be.
Maybe I’m still grieving and off-base. But it feels like a true declaration of war, whether I want it or not, it’s here.