Honestly at that point in time I was too cold, heartless, and calculating. I was trying ro come up with a means to an end in order to save humanity during one of its darkest times. My ideas had merit and good intentions, but the road to hell is also paved with those too.

Honestly I had to struggle. I had to learn. I had to fall down as hard as I could. I needed to hit absolute my rock bottom. Where my own life ending by my own hands was always a constant temptation.

It was only when I lost my buseinsses that I owned. Kept having to switch onto fallback job positions. That also all failed me too. Until I had nothing left but my knowledge and skills.

I needed to learn humility. I needed to learn compassion again. I needed to rediscover what it is to be grateful for the many miracles we take for granted in our every day life. It was only then and only now that my soul has been tempered and forged in stoic fire. That living a virtuous life is what is most important to thrive.