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I remember being so disappointed that my parents had lied (Santa rug), but then my 6 years younger brother would have suffered if I made a scene, so I zipped it. Made me wonder what else they’d misrepresented, and what else they were prepared to misrepresent in the years to come.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 2y ago

I grew up with a father playing doctors with my sister, and training her to abuse me as well (stirring shit up for no reason, i was a devoted big brother, my father corrupted her). It's the same shit.

You know that every single motherfucking psycho who gets attention feeds the Beast. Part of how we win is shunning every last bit of psychotic personality disorder shit we encounter. It makes me so mad these days I don't have any problem going really out of my way to get the fuck away, at all costs, you must get out from under these abusers.

I am quite sure that every asshole you stop doing business with weakens the power base of those higher up. When Trent Reznor sings "God money, let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised" thats the good people who don't get out from under the vampires.

Took me until end of 2021 (45 years) to finally figure out that 9 out of 10 people I dealt with were taking me for a ride and the rest I was begging to for help.

Literally nearly killed me.

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BitBees 2y ago

Dear God , that’s brutal. You’re amazing and strong for standing up, calling out, and stepping away (despite that it extracted so much of your time, innocence and peace of mind). That is the only way to break the chain of abuse, in your life, and in future generations. Peace be with you, my brother.

Jac 2y ago

💯 I was about that same age when the legacy of abuse came into focus for me. It sure takes a while to sort, and influences the types of relationships you foster with people until that awakening. Glad to hear you made it out brother. 🫂