now, i dont mean genocidal like: you have been weighed in scales and found wanting and deserve the hague
i mean, product of genocidal world
emergent thinking
emergent aesthetic
like how everyone is raised misogynistically cos society is, have to adjust for drift the other way
have to make it a thing, hey, for every three books i read written by a man, i ~have to read one by a woman. and im gonna keep doing that shit until it is no longer like that inside me
gotta fight back, gotta consciously calibrate against that shit
gotta design something and be so open to asking yourself, cos i do, i ask myself:
am i being narcey, am i being so genocidal rn, am i being misogynist, am i being anti-indigenous, am i being racist, am i being prejudiced, am i punching down
gotta be so open to arriving at ~yea~
so then can not be
gotta get to: yes actually so racist this thing i drew thats crazy like how did so much genocidal shit come out of my fingers and this paintbrush
how? cos we live on racist genocide planet that's how like obvi
you dont even have to do a thing to absorb all this shit from everywhere it is a constant thing
like oh this romcom i just watched?
like a fish tank i gotta clean the whole tank now
so contaminated by 80s misogyny rn
proactive prooooooo active
proactive
gotta be on it gotta be responsive gotta be proactive like buffalo in blizzard gotta face the wind and walk
walking my way out of this blizzard
walking a thousand miles
walking forever
until i walk no more
