Yeah, apex predators with empathy is a pretty difficult combination. I’ve struggled with it in my life too. In the end I had a personal realization the natural world is literally kill or be killed and predators don’t think twice about prey at any trophic level.

Realistically there is a massive amount of life lost in agriculture too and that fact isn’t lost on me either. There is no way around it, for us to live - other creatures must die. And I think being healthy and accepting that other creatures must die is an easier and more honest route than trying to avoid the inevitable while still contributing to the mass death of “other” creatures like insects, rodents, rabbits etc. So much life is eradicated in growing the crops that sustain vegans and vegetarians too. So what’s the point?

I know their (your) hearts are in the right place but there is a lot of death involved in plant-based calories too.

I wish you the best on your quest to restore your health. It’s so important, and attainable.