Effortless Sleep

I woke up in the night to go for a pee. Drank a large protein shake before bed which wasn't a great idea - went through me rather quickly.

Anyway, less detail of my bodily functions and more breakthrough.

I was sleeping super well. When I came back from the bathroom I lay down and thought to myself "Oohhh perfect, now I can go back to sleep in this super comfy position."

And then it happened.

As I lay there my mind clicked on and started to run guilt mode. "I should be doing this, I should have done that" etc etc.

Now I watched this very closely, being careful not to get caught into my mind - feeding it.

I needed to understand the thought I'd had. Which hamster wheel had got triggered?

I realised it was Support/Let Down.🐹 🛞

Can you see that? I was looking after myself all snuggled up... doing something just for me... support. Then the wheel started spinning bringing up the opposite word - let down.

This is how the mind works. The wheels are like trip wires in particular areas. I had tripped mine.

I kept watching the guilt and wheel as of course it woke me up and made me lie there ruminating.

I was stunned at how easily it had activated just by doing something small for myself. But this is how it is. And in understanding it I could go to the creator of the script and comfort him.

Soon after I calmed down and drifted off to sleep.

Effortless sleep.