Wow what a beautiful note, thanks for sharing. I’m pretty accurately described in your last paragraph.

I’m someone who always imagined having kids but then there always seemed too many reasons not to with everything going on in the world, or as you mentioned- a deep fear of doing it all wrong. Fucking it up colossally.

Living in the US currently gives us a lot of hesitation too, is this actually somewhere we want to raise a child? Can we even afford to without access to a functioning health system? Etc.