Tbh I have no fu clue. Im just a retarded psycho. And I don’t believe in “god” the way other people do either.
BUT.
Heres my thought you didn’t ask for but you will get anyway.
Maybe you are God in a physical body. You are spirit in the flesh. You are eternal life expressing Iiself as You. You are a cosmic being. You are all power. You are all wisdom. You are all intelligence. You are perfection. You are magnificence. You are the creator and you are creating the creation of You on this planet.
You are god.
And you can’t help kids dying from cancer.
This is my take