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so i learned this week that cannabis is apparently like Catnip for people who may be prone to OCD symptoms. I always knew I was highly sensitive to cannabis, but I didn't know this.*

The funny thing is, I may owe my falling down the rabbit hole to my long-time partner's prolific smoking habit. At some point, on this journey of obsessing over details of perfect money, I started asking myself: "why am i so obsessed with this?"

Now, I'm onto scrupulosity OCD, starving my partner of sex. And for the first time ever, he stopped smoking. It's either salvation or OCD, and I haven't figured that out yet.

God has to have a sense of humor.

*heart goes out to people who experience OCD, and I'm not trying to make light of anyone's struggles

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ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

yeah, i work like a demon when i get me some weed

i just hate dealing with the normies around me finding that weird

gojiberra 1y ago

Haha, that seems like a common problem. The stigma from normies is real. I have a replaced my stigma with a serious respect for the stuff.

I found that I had great ideas in that state while wandering outside, but they only exist in that world, and I don't know how to pull them through to this one.

I was reminded of being stoned and walking outside by 2 little kids who were fascinated with playing in the pebbles on a bike trail to the chagrin of their parents who were trying to get them to walk. I realized, they look like they are stoned.

They were appreciating the different shapes and sizes and colors of the pebbles that the rest of us are just walking on.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

yeah, that's the thing... for me the mindset i get from weed is exactly like WD40 for the gears to grind out real solutions, i have written so many algorithms while baked

gojiberra 1y ago

I wish it could do that for me. I have noticed that with just a few sips of a beer, I could work much better and more creatively.

I explain this away as perhaps I'm in a state of enjoyment or a little bit calms just enough to focus.

I gravitated more to alcohol than weed because I can dose it better. I don't think that's a good thing of course. I rarely drink anymore.

I'm pretty excited about body mechanics as a way of regulating mental states and looking more into this.