I know what you mean. All my life i have been wondering why i want to know how to survive in war as a civilian, how to live from nature, how ordinary people survived in nature 300 years ago, what it takes to be completely independent of of modern civilization to live. It was clear to me even before COVID that a massive collapse was coming and since I was a little boy I instinctively wanted to know exactly how to survive in the worst case. For the past 3 years my instinct has been driving me even more and i'm pretty sure that in my lifetime i'll probably experience an event of WW2 proportions, or even worse... maybe not with the total war in the world but at least the financial, social, economic and/or health disaster before/after WW2.
Since I fell into the #bitcoin rabbit hole in 2015 I have been preparing for my financial independence, not only with bitcoin but above all thanks to bitcoin and everything around it.
The game became a premonition, the premonition became an idea, the idea led to actions and meanwhile there is a possible way.
No one takes this crazy idea, my "feeling", seriously, not even in my closest circles. I don't want it to be true myself, but my feeling, my intuition, the connections (or coincidences) and what has been done to the people globally drives me to have as few dependencies as possible.
I can't describe the feeling exactly, where it's taking me either, but i can say: Yup, i feel that something really big is about to happen