Yeah I can relate to this.

Regarding oneness and separation it's a constant balancing act.

I tend to think of it dimensionally. Clearly in the 3rd dimension there is separation and a need for time, planning, rationality, ect.

In the higher dimensions these concepts break down further and further until there is only Christ, Tao, Onness, Source, or whatever term one wishes to asign to the infinite light of consicousness.

I recorded some episodes explaining these things as best as I could if you'd like to check them out. The last two on integration specifically.

Sourcenode.xyz

I have a feeling we would have some great conversations. If you want to DM me your contact info for signal or simplex I'd be down to chat sometime.