Thank god I'm not welding baby.
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You're doing important work, too, raising your children. Good thing you can imbibe if needed. LOL
Husband is mostly thu-fri homeofficing, since I and cubs are mon-wed completely out of the city. So he took the kids out and is now working in another room. It's absolute bliss he can and will help like this.
Also I found being slightly drunk or high helps me immensely with patience around kids. Just a small dose goes a huge way. I'm not a good nice mum to begin with, without my hippie man I'd be authoritative bitch. Just like I was raised. But if I cut that nerve off, I'm all I love ya guys, of course I'll be a horse, sure I'll play with Duplo or Brio trains, hell no I won't do chores now when we're together😅
What an argument to be an alcoholic 😩
I'll be honest and set that hearing this gives me pause, and that I think it means you should address the issue you have from being raised and mirroring that behavior, but... I honestly have to commend your for not wanting to push that behavior into your kids.
I'd have headaches and be tired all day if I'd "drink a lil" during the day. Not good when you have to sit in front of the screen all day and don't fall asleep.
That said it is interesting to check the mixes, sound design or music I was working on whole day after a beer or two. The analytical side of my brain just waves hands "it's ok, it's fine" and so the repressed emotional side has a go, sometimes making me change a lot of stuff quite radically. When I get back to it sober, it's often a bit of a mess, but the direction is right (more character, cooler, more engaging...).
Excuses :).
Be careful.
Of course I'm careful. Once you can't go by without it, you're screwed. I absolutely can, have got two kids to raise and discussing third, for crying out loud. Never drive and mostly husband is at hand.
All I'm saying is that numbing your anxiety and anger with drugs can be a good choice when dealing with small kids. In a safe space etc, disclamers.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yQqesSRiRZQ. Vybavila se mi absolutní klasika😂
Jo, tak takhle ne. Tohle není "edge off"😂
There was a steep learning curve to having kids. Before second I started having big heartrate problems and got classified neurosis - I'm otherwise healthy, but inner shit got out. They told me to meditate😅 I started having anxiety attacks wild as fuck with first kid and it get better with the second just because I couldn't handle more of it all. Total exhaustion. I went through burnout just a few months ago. I wanted to get psyllocybin treatments, which would be perfect, but that's not legal here yet. Yay.
I admit I'm not doing perfect for myself, not even close. I can get heartrate 200 just from remembering how my toddler fell in the pool and sunk for like two seconds.
So yeah, tipsy or slightly high gets the edge off. Enough to not die of inner demons.
Dark, dark, heavymetal theatre, mommy jokes.
You've got it rough. I'm still glad you're here and that you are well you are.
Thanks, man. You're kind. Actually if I wasn't fucked up to begin with, I'd be almost unrealistically blessed with my Chad and kids. I'm just harshly open about my problems, because there's too much stigma and pressure around muming and I won't pretend a bit.
Enough about me, tell me some of your dark shit now🤩 And make it spicy🤩🤩
Well, I've started down the long, awful path of defeating myself. I've mentioned this before, at least in more private corners, but, I realized a while back that I've treated myself like the villain of my own story. (This co-incided with me starting to write a novel...) But now, I've started engaging with that habit in a struggle to re-write that habit and to build a better life for myself and those I hope to be around and bring into this world.
I'm not sure if that's dark and spicy enough, so, if we ever meet, I'll make you a rummy drink that will be both dark and spicy. 😅
Ooh, spilling secrets and gossip over drink? That's exciting, something we females never do!🤩😁
I noticed you mentioned writing a fantasy novel, that's where I met and followed you. I'd love to read your stuff, but English isn't my language and I've never actually read anything longer than notes, I'm afraid much of tone and atmosphere would get lost in translation for me.😒
Big respect if you're capable of adjusting your perception of yourself, that's a big one. The hardest, I'd guess.
It'll be hard to dry with me since I'm a guy. Lol!
I'd love to have you read what I've written as a non-native English speaker. That's a perspective that I'd value greatly!
Hah, I remember first classes, when we were supposed to turn and see Lucifer/pure horror and some people were struggling with being tortured, shocked, just play the scared soul.
I could cry on the spot and melt down and just get up laughing😅 And I was like "wait, guys, you DON'T have it behind your shoulder like always?"
Oh, inner demons.