Well this day has turned to shit. Be careful who you hook up with in life. Narcissistic people with mental issues will generally prevail when it comes to alienating the kids against the other parent. It’s a real problem. The instant the alienated parent comes up with some more boundaries because the kid needed it, they flex their muscles and decide they will not be subject to the new rules, which are quite tame, by the way, in my case. I don’t have enough boundaries, but I’m not going to sit by and let some pissant kid who thinks he’s going to challenge me get his way, especially over stupid shit (I blocked him from the Internet). Parental alienation is a very real thing, but it’s hard to prove, and the courts don’t care even if you do prove it so there’s not much point in challenging it in court. I’d rather keep my sats anyway.
I’m not perfect and I guess I could have handled this situation better. None of you know me so for all you know I’m some psycho dude with serious issues. I think I’m fairly rational. My issue is I’ve been left a lot in my life by people I was close to and it’s a pain that never goes away and one which I don’t deal well with. I have a hard time letting people get close to me. My current wife is one I let get close, but everyone else is pretty much kept at arm’s length. Too much past unresolved pain to be ok letting people in. I think many of us have similar issues.. maybe not exactly my issues, but issues nonetheless. I don’t have the answers for what to do so tomorrow the sun will rise and it’ll be another day and I’ll find something else to keep me busy, all the while ignoring my issues until they come up again. My wife says I should go see a counselor of the Catholic variety. She’s probably right. I should do that. But again, past counselors, I’ve seen several, have only made things worse so I’m trapped by the familiar feeling of not being able to get close again.
Why am I writing this here? Well.. I’m out walking off some steam as I write this.. and I considered many times deleting this text because I’m usually not one to air my dirty laundry, but I think I will post it because I want others who are in less than perfect situations to know that you’re not alone. Just keep trying to do the right thing, consider trying to right the wrongs you’ve done to others, and seek faith in God.
