Been chasing 3 for 30+ yrs
Discussion
Have you tried prayer and fellowship?
I did, it was an accidental solo adventure in my formative years. it was comforting. However, I have found utilitarian thought and I feel it provides a better base for my worldview.
I commented as such because I feel my soul is in an argument with this world of conformities. I now see the world view of trying to get the greatest good in the face of negativity. I see areas where I can make changes and I am compelled to act positively there.
I think I understand what you mean. Sorta a constant rebuff of the things you see around you that are disagreeable because of their damaging effects on society.
In a way, it's a constant cognitive dissonance, no?
Yes, I have found peace in the process as a duck may find rain not a bother, all while paddling like hell while showing calm on the surface.
I feel i crave the spice of life, and with it comes some unsavoury aspects that must be recognized and endured.
It's a challenge to reach all of them at the same time. Sometimes one area is doing great, but not as good comparing to the others. Life is very dynamic and it’s an endless working progress. For me, the real deal is to trying to enjoy the process. 🫂💜
I've been experiencing moments of a peaceful mind and what made that possible was stop chasing. not to be comfortable with things as they are, but to embrace it all so I can create a new life aware of all that made the old one possible. I've learned to be aware of what comes to me and not fight it - cause it will inevitably change (my fight may be the only thing that will contribute to the appearance that everything is the same).
how do you feel when you read that?
you inspired me to see new things right now. thank you!
You reminded me of the 6 months before I met my wife. I had chased so many things that were not me, trying to define myself through others' images of me. I decided to give up on the chase and focus on myself. Grew a beard, focused inwards and on doing nothing but me ran into this beautiful smile of a woman who wouldn’t let me quit.
That's the feeling you made me have. I find in the last year or so I have reminded myself that this is just a ride we are all on and we can figure it out. Acting from love instead of fear is tough but I have to stop regrouping and keep that in mind.
🥹 this is such a beautiful story! thank you, Dan Wedge! my eyes filled with tears.
I hope you just rest in this loving space you so often offer!