Fuck school is right, it always taught us to seek authority based validation over everything else.
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20 years cut back, man. Twenty years of seeking validation and rather burying myself for being always too extra. I'm dead sure my overeating and anxiety attacks are from this. I can't stop laughing when I'm on the stage for whatever purpose, I'm so freaking happy somebody is waiting for me to show all I got.
It takes a life time to build back the joy that school tried to kill, and most don't ever get it back.