also, tbh, in retrospect i think it was obvious i was not made for dad duty, though i'm not ruling it out, i just doubt it, and i need to keep meaning in my life so i hunt other things that i care about
to be honest, i'm in a category of "i don't want to have children" for the reason of "to have them subjected to brainwashing to become servants of evil men"
not the usual "woo eco doom" story
so it's hard to motivate me towards seeking a wife and making childrend because i don't want to do it unless wife is fine with being my kids main teacher and that we be as far as possible away from the minions of satan who run the world these days
