My BDay is also coming in the next weeks, not gonna lie already dreading it, I feel its dark cloud over me already
Discussion
Be thankful another year is added on and remember your purpose in life. That dark cloud is opportunity just waiting to pour out onto you.
What!! Never regret getting older, it’s a privilege denied to many! Embrace and celebrate your born date as you continue your journey around the sun 💜🫂🙏
Let’s just say enough people have used that day to hurt me over the years that I now wish to just avoid reliving the experience, CPTSD is a bitch.
All you guys write makes sense logically, but the emotions think otherwise
Understand but please try and replace these negative emotions with positive thoughts…plant a positive thought about it each day and watch it bloom by the time it comes around! Take these negative life experiences as lessons, you are here, you are strong and you are amazing, and use them as your stepping stone to getting you here today and the amazing and wonderful person that you are. 💜🫂
I am alone around here, unless people need me. I know already I will be alone on that day, not even with my son (and I do not want to bargain with the devil to change that).
I chose to live my sadness fully when it emerges, let it flow, it is a sign of what matters. Sometimes I chose to communicate it. Maybe it is to navigate the meltdown, maybe it is to ask for help, but it is also to remind people to appreciate those things they have and I do not. I see so many not appreciating what I would kill to have.
This wave of sadness will pass. All my emotions have their word to say.
I feel you. Mine is less than a month away and I look forward to it being over. I see a lot of myself in your words 🫂
Be careful of your words my friend, life is listening. Be grateful and remember that you are here for a reason, you have not come this far to just come this far 💜🫂
Expressing my sadness here on Nostr has helped me connecting with people that share the same experience as I do. Every sad note has attracted someone telling me “I too”. This made me less lonely in my experience, an experience denied in many ways by many people.
Of course change is possible, I would’t bother typing anything if I do not believe that. I also understand the importance of gratitude and being thankful. I am thankful for all I have, does not mean I cannot be sad for some basic human needs missing in my life.
A few words on gratitude…
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Is true life is listening I survive o drug overdose being in coma for 4 weeks be gave my last rites I pulled through threw a few later I was still not taking care of myself and I got hit with Hodgkin's lymphoma but again I pulled through and the worst year to get diagnosed end of 2019 so all through 2020 I was at risk fr COVID I had to take the vax I had no choice in the matter thinking back now if I had a choice I wouldn't of taking it but life is listening don't sway to far from the beaten path you're empaths won't be able to bring you in. Always give thanks and praise to you're creator you are made in his image. You guys will never know how construct and intreget the human body is woven In clay of our Ancestors the Anunakki And of our cousins homo Erectus. People that kill them selfs well I won't continue some will be offended. Life is a gift whether you have it bad or good you're here, if it was today you were inside the womb you're mom is more likely to kill you through aborting you than letting you see the beauty of life. Abortion apart from rape or incest is wrong right now at this speed the human population is killing itself. Look I will speak no more listen to Elon musk follow his teachings the smartest man on this earth. A white African American our creator wanted to show you race doesn't exist we are homo sapiens bleed red everything inside our bodies works the same as it does in African mam Asian man Middle Eastern Man, European man we are all of this earth her salt yet we are divided by zellets who believe their religion is most true when it gets down to it all religions are the same from Christianaity Muslim Hebrew and so on it tells the story similar zellets chose to change some parts so it would create confusion and war hear me now my brothers and sisters we are all one life is listening a not one nuclear war head will ever go off again. Hear my words as I tell them I only write what comes to me from my empath. Signed Aaron H from Eire 🇮🇪🙏
To be rich is to have something money cannot buy..and that is your life and your son.
Gratitude is the key to happiness, be grateful for every thing in your life no matter how big or small.
I have endless much darkness and falls in my life, I take them all as lessons as I’ve gained strength and confidence to keep going.
You are alive, you have a son, you have friends and family, you are here, you already have more than others have. Be grateful my friend each day and you will have a lot to be grateful for 🙏💜
Your still here
Progressing
Learning
Advancing
Connecting With People
That hurt brought you closer to understanding humanity. I’ve been there and I’ve learned to to apply the Law of Detachment.
Count your moments and feelings!