I keep writing and deleting notes before posting. I’m bugging with conflicting feelings of hope and despair.
It’s like I feel full of hope for others and the world and have none for myself.
I think I need a reboot…
Discussion
Have confidence, if you have been debased you will find yourself based again.
Not sure I ever had a base… my compass worked fine but I lived in a context where people made me believe it didn’t. So I listened to them, for years, and years, and then to other people like them, and adjusted, “repaired”. Now, I realize the compass worked fine but I made a whole big mess with it and all this extra wiring is taking forever to remove, deep ingrained in the code. Logically, I understand it, yet emotional and behaviorally something does not work.
Anyway, thank you for attending my psychoanalysis session
It is a deep realization to realize that you were right, that those around you were confused or misaligned with your alignment, and all the walking you did in that direction wasn’t quite where you wanted to go.
Remember that you did do all that walking, and you are that much more effective at walking. Now that you know where you are going, you will make grand strides!
Your base is your compass, which as you say, was always pointed in the right direction. To go to an eternal place, the going must also be eternal. Enjoy the walk!
Never believed in compliments, was brought up that way. 🤷♂️ 🫂💜
Awesome video, one of the hardest aspect of the “life” I’m living now is not being in contact with all these things that I loved. Problem is a mixture of bad health (fibromyalgia), poor social skills (Asperger) and maybe just tad of cPTSD , just a tad.
