Taking the opportunity to reflect a bit deeply on this, (although I'm sure it was meant as a joke that no one but you had context to? 😆)

To live with oneself, to me, means to examine your life and to be witness to it in its' fullness.

All the bad and the ugly, can't be masked, ignored or drowned out. Otherwise those parts of you get neglected, which to me is the opposite of living with yourself.

Instead you can practice seeing and accepting yourself just as you are currently. Even gently investigating who you really are perhaps.

To me, this is one perspective of living "with yourself". 😀