i am not sorry for the fact that you were never taught, nor did you take the initiative to learn, how to prepare effectively. as a result, you now tend to react & overreact to even the slightest shifts in circumstance.

your propensity to panic renders you susceptible to the fear of change, as you are swayed by the most vociferous claims that everything is destined to fall apart.

you allow yourself to be influenced by these voices that repeatedly undermine your confidence, & perhaps they are correct.