I'm no longer a churchgoer but there are some church songs that make me cry like a little baby still. Because I remember the emotion I had singing them. I remember how sure I was of every word. And now, not so much. I cry for what I've lost but I feel like I'm a stronger, more loving, more accepting person now that I've seen more of the world than my small, religious view.
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I, too, feel much the same as you. Church has become a political machine and lost its mandate. Yet, I still weep at Amazing Grace. I believed then, I believe now. The last two times I was singing at church I burst into laughter; my mind can’t process the hypocrisy I see from many so-called Christians. Xtians they have become to me. And I believe if Christ walked through the doors of the church today, that they would crucify him.