if thats intolerable keep the secret at ~that~ cost
see how lose lose all this shit is
internal family systems talks about being blended with parts instead of in full self
when blended with a part, at whatever age that part happens to be, that part is abandoned & alone & lost & cant hear you, the full self
once blended, like jungian possession, that blend runs the show
like a little girl fucking screaming in so much pain only Palestinians who have been in so much pain can hear her
they have the bandwidth
& inside primary narcissism all that matters is someone anyone who has the bandwidth
a blended part is often a self sabotaging one
again, like a child locked in a room with no one there
there is no access to the rest of the fuller self that can step in & immediately fix it