After a week of working with people in person, I feel much more charged and motivated. I feel primed to learn more and better, to pick up my own projects, better contribute to open source!
Just noted a bump in my anti-social posture. Im in a large group of cool bitcoiners working on cool new projects, yet I dont seem too excited about having conversations and sharing stories. I seem to be leaning in and clustering near people I already know. I am avoidant of my social circles back out, including my girlfriend. Theres opportunity to learn a new language, yet Im not extending and exposing myself to it.
I could change all this with a simple expense of the right mental energy.
Here we go. Day 3/14
I went in, confident of doing things.
I did things. Plucked the low hanging fruits.
Now that the real work has begun, im lagging on everything I needed to learn.
And have lost confidence in my abilities to learn them properly and catch up
Why do I build and stop? Why do I build, stop, then destroy?! Why does my will to destroy always overpower my will to build?
Just calling it. Ive been super avoidant the last couple of months! From now on, I say yes to stuffs
I'm pissed because if I was a better programmer, i would have finished this task and headed on out to enjoy more life