Have you ever felt like avoiding the arena? Running away from the limelight. Skipping the bleeding edge?
Why did you stay there?
I wake up. I work out. I shower. I have coffee. Then I'm free
I wake up at 5:30
Workout was hard, so I just sampled the pushups and squats
I shower,
Make my coffee.
Now I'm free to work for my pay today
I wake up. I work out. I shower. I have coffee. Im free.
I wake up at 6:30
I do 30 pushups, squats and twists
I take a cold shower
Have my cofee
And i am free for the rest of the day
I wake up. I work out. I shower. Im free
I wake up at six.
I do 25 pushups.
I take a warm shower.
Then I have the rest of my day free!
I've been picturing and describing my painful, unproductive days as "funk". This word is useless. And worst of all, it doesnt say what I need to do to get out of "the funk".
Stephen Pressfield gave me a new word yesterday. RESISTANCE!
I'm fighting The Resistance, and so far, ive been losing. Time to get back on top
Mom tried to call. I miss her. I dont want to listen to her countless, endless problems. Got my own
In truth, i tried to do something really hard this year. I tried to start my own venture. And crumbled really fast under the pressure!
Been MIA the last 30 hours. Vegerative. In bed. Watching movies. This has lost me a week of hard earned momentum. Probably with incalculable cost in good will.
Snap out!
Problem: whenever the motivation to do things come, I am compelled to work on EVERHTHING thats broken, missing or unfinished. And that is a lot of things in my life. And I quickly get overwhelmed. And then Im back to the beginning. Wallowing
Going halfway is the worst thing ypu could do. Youve signed up. Hold tight and go all the way!
See now I remember well why I learnt all this stuff, computers, programming and all that. I was curious how that world worked.
I wanted to understand it better. I wanted to understand the tool, and to leverage it to effect my world.