Sometimes, healing has nothing to do with the people who've hurt you. Sometimes, healing is about apologizing to yourself for all the bullshit you made yourself believe.

This year has been nothing short of life-changing.

I still remember the holidays when I couldn’t be with my family, when I had little to give besides love, and even then, love was enough.

But in spring 2023, I made a decision. I was done playing small, done holding back, done settling for less than I deserved. I chose to believe in myself fully. I spent the summer doing the hard work: learning, growing, sharpening my skills, prioritizing my health, reclusing from the people and places that didn’t serve me, protecting my energy, and leaning deeply into my faith. I knew I had more to give…to myself, to my family, to this life…and I wasn’t going to waste another second waiting for things to change. I was going to grab life by the horns!

And then, in February, everything shifted. An opportunity came my way that changed my life…mentally, physically, geographically, and especially financially. It was the result of every late night, every hard choice, every leap of faith. And let me tell you, it paid off in ways I never imagined.

In just a few days, I’ll be flying home to spend the holidays with the people I love most that I haven’t seen in so long. For two weeks, we’ll gather in a 28-bedroom sanctuary on the ocean, surrounded by wild horses. A space I created for us to reconnect, to celebrate, and to simply be together. My girls, my dad, my siblings, their families, our extended family…my ride-or-dies, all under one roof.

I made this happen. I set us all up to thrive. But more than that, I showed my kids something invaluable: that when you refuse to settle, when you’re willing to take risks and face failure head-on, when you learn to value your time and energy, anything is possible. I showed myself that the stories we tell about what’s “impossible” can be rewritten. Every barrier can be broken. Every limitation can be overcome.

And I’m not stopping here. 2025 is about taking things even further….creating more freedom, owning my time, and building a life that’s truly my own. Detached from the fiat hamster wheel, and board meetings, and 9-5’s. I’m setting myself free.

But right now, it’s about being present. About resting in the gratitude of this moment and soaking up the love and joy that got me here. If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that no matter where you start, transformation is possible. You just have to believe in yourself enough to begin again.

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Old adventure note: Cabrillo highway spring 2018. Among the most beautiful and fun drives I’ve ever taken.

Clown world things 😂😂

I want to open a food truck called “health food” and just serve beef and eggs and argue w normies all about why beef is actually one of the only health foods 😂☀️

Bro with skinny arms and a little gut complimented my physique at the gym. I told him: consistency, effort and food are the key.

He told me he is “mostly vegetarian” and wouldn’t do carnivore bc of “cholesterol”. I explained that the lipid hypothesis is bullshit and is built on fraudulence. He shrugged and said “whatever works” and kept on being a weak bitch 😂

#zapcooking #foodstr

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I figured there might be a little false advertising

The Arctic cherry actually sounds pretty good. 🤙🏼

Amazon delivery incoming 🤣

I had a really good day today.

My boss gave me $300 worth of grocery gift cards as part of my Christmas bonus. I went and filled up on all the treats and extras I'll need over Christmas. Mosha gets a month supply of soft food and some liverwurst sausage, her favorite.

While I was checking out I spoke about it with the cashier, and she mentioned how lucky I was to get a bonus. No Christmas bonus at the grocery store. My total bill came to just under $250, so I left the remaining $50 gift card for her. The look on her face was all the thanks I needed 🥹

It was a good chance to reflect on how good I have it, and make a stranger's day. Do something nice for a stranger this Christmas, it's worth it 🎄

Sounds promising 🤙🏼

Thanks! 🙏🏻 🫂💜

I had something really bad that started about a month ago. Hacking up brown and green shit.

It’s still lingering, and the doc gave me a puffer to help me breathe a bit easier at night. The past 2 nights are the first 2 that I’ve slept right through in about a month.

Still have a slight cough with some clear phlegm. I’ve never in my entire life that I can remember anyways, had a sickness for this length of time before. It’s getting really annoying, and I’ve got a slightly jammed rib still from coughing so hard earlier on.

I can usually shake a cold in about a week or so without any antibiotics. Hate taking them because they wreck your gut. Then you gotta take probiotics to help with repair.

GM to all the other lunatics who regularly wake up before 5AM for no good reason at all. 🌛

A moonlit night. Some areas in the valley don't allow cars to pass through so we are travelling by horse carriage. So giddy-up it's cold af.

Exploring the jungle as a family and immersing into nature is becoming a more natural part of life.

When we look at polarities relationship, we forget the polarity and beauty that nature shows us.

The masculine of the air, meeting the feminine of Mother Earth to create the beautiful setting where we find peace.

Your union is the same with your wife. When you bring the balance of your masculine to meet the balance of your wife’s feminine, harmony is created.

Families of the future live in harmony with love and respect.

The times of family life being full of chaos, resentment and arguments are slowly melting away 🙏🏻