everyone here thinks I'm sad about something else - I'm not - and none of it has to do with men, whose behavior can sometimes feel like a neverending supply of sadness and despair. really, I want to just make music and, like, *express myself*.
one thing I've learned is that there is never a perfect time for anything and it's impossible to make things exactly the way you think they need to be in order to work, so just Fuck Around and Find Out as per usual.
breathing through your emotions is a different kind of breath.
literally everyone born before 1979 is just jealous that they never got to experience Decentralized Notoriety before getting sucked into the Media Circus School for Public Figures and Puppetheads.
WE DON'T NEED NO THOUGHT CONTROL.
the CIA doesn't hate me, btw, and I'm sorry if they hate you but that's not my problem.
I'm sorry that I sometimes have to process things like this but it's moreso about things that need to be addressed in the public square aka The Collective Consciousness.
we are all over sharers even if that means over sharing the same shit on the daily - your sales pitch, you propaganda, opinions and rhetoric, linked in ass content types of things.
btw. you think LinkedIn didn't ban me at one point or two? it's always the same funeral for the originals Disruptors of technology and scientific innovation - they eventually become. corrupt and boring bc of having too much power just like George Orwell reminded us of in "Animal Farm".
it's not useful to take these people so seriously that now you're justifying their bullshit for them. literally not a single one of these men's estates are worth the cost to your soul and I am DEAD serious.
all the women who go for this sort of thing end up turning into Pillars of Salt and I don't think I need to explain that one much further. "ohh look at her she's in love" like yes ma'am Real Good D can do that.
but if you sell your soul for money, your own body will reveal it; and even if it's perfect, you won't be free enough to fall in love. don't fall for the money trap instead. don't settle for someone who isn't madly and happily in love with you. proud of you. protective of you.
I thank God every day that I'm only mildly attractive bc I could not handle the kind of attention hot girls get on a daily basis, especially just for being hot.
attention for being talented or smart?
that's the best because it attracts talented and smart people who also have something of value to share.
eventually, I think we will have a generation of men stand up and refuse to repeat the sins of their fathers. I pray for these ones every day and the rest of you can gfy.
the United States of America IS the Promised Land and that's why our Jewish family wants to take over it. let's be frank, it is great here. we have a great military even if the leaders who have conned and bribed and blackmailed their way through the political pipeline suck ass.
but that's really the problem: this Promised Land was promised to all who believe in the American Dream. that's all you gotta do - believe that the shit show some people have created can and will be replaced with something more like the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.
it really is a test of the spirit on some way, and there is no longer a bloodline claim (always an excuse for violence) because Jesus came to abolish all blood sacrifices once and for all. this may not be written in the Constitution but it is fundamental to this nation's survival to understand that.
it is biblical.
I don't care what your religion is or what the religions of our founding fathers were. we don't need religion, we need to accept that love is the only answer. Jesus made that very clear. those who choose to live through a love for humanity should lead us. all else leads to more and more fragmentation of our connections and bonds as humans.
instead of coddling the screaming war baby, let us demand that the USA commit to a global ceasefire. this is where all ceasefire agreements need to begin - in our own country, which commits itself to not engaging in any more war crimes from this point on.
if we can't, then we really should boot all those people from power and start fresh with uncorrupted citizens who are willing and capable of leading us toward a better future. this isn't our grandfathers' world anymore and we have everything it takes to fix these messes.
if greed is the problem, then create and implement absolute accountability; this is one of the highest forms of intelligence as it helps ensure our survival as a civilization.
I believe in us✌🏼
regardless of the connection, it's abundantly clear that our paths are diverging. he's graduated from mooching cigarettes off of women to mooching experiences off of old men. wherever I'm going in life, I can't take him.
in the same way that he makes me feel culturally inept, like, I'm cool and exotic but not exotic like *her*, he's pretty much as standard as it gets for a guy who's been referred to as a "tumbleweed".
he looks at every beautiful woman like he's missing out on something. he gets doses of reality every once in a while when he realizes that the people around us could give two shits about him.
but it's me who brings the emotional brutality by telling him the truth - that I don't play these games anymore, that I've got other opportunities, too - and he's stuck on the thing he can leverage for a little bit of control.
I keep asking myself who this reminds me of, as if I don't already know the answer, but would I miss this if the call finally came through and I had the chance to finally put it all on stage?
the paradox is in wanting what you want - all of it and nothing at all - whether it pleases anyone else or not. imo, he's either a massive fraud or a fantastic liar or a deadbeat nepo baby or in the closet.
look, the most monumental act of hubris was the Cool Jews being like, "nuh uh that bitch can't even EVEN. we need to set our Golden Goose up with a real Jewish yapper!" and like baby that is fine whatever but now these girls are DYING for a dude who actually likes them like that.
sucks to be stupid, ya know?
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"I don't know who's writing all that shit" yeah bitch neither do I.
I write on Nostr so everyone else can save face.
never seen a rapper get canceled harder and I have a feeling we'll never see it happen like that again.
God bless Kendrick Lamar.
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what's it called when you're homesick for a home you've never had?