So I'm back after taking a long break from social media and digital detox. Spent most of the time in the countryside away from big cities and crowds of people. Nature really heals!

I'm very depressed today. Past memories are killing me. I have nightmares. I'm seeing my friends who passed away. I do feel lonely... especially now...

GN or GM to everyone depending on the timezone you are now.

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GN or GM to everyone depending on the time zone you are in now. I had a good day. I didn't make money. But I'm following my 21 day challenge. It's the 4th day. I would like to write more but tbh I'm too tired. I wish all good people beautiful and at the same time a meaningful weekend. Take care of yourselves and your loved ones...

PS Just a simple question to everyone who reads that. How many languages you speak and/or understand?

I speak and understand approx 9-11 languages at different levels. My native language is Latvian.

As I promised I will write more about myself on #ZBD in the near future...

I prioritize living in the present moment because it is the only time we truly possess.

No one can fully anticipate or prepare for the future due to its inherent unpredictability.

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GN and/or GM to everyone reading this depending on timezone you are now. Thanks to everyone who zapped some sats for me. Thanks #ZBD #Nostr platform. I have a feeling I have to share about my life. Many people already yrs ago told me that I should write a book about my life. I feel safe here thanks to #ZBD. Not like other social media platforms.

I'm thinking about how to write a book in English as my English language is not perfect (fluent). I can write quite well in my native language (I have 2 Master's degrees in Law lol).

But due to what I know about my native country... corruption etc I don't see a point. I'm not safe here tbh. And there are too many ppl who watch after me understanding that I know too much about them. That's why I'm limited to finding a normal job according to my qualifications and experience in this country. My very best wishes to all good people all around the world. I've seen quite a lot of the world. But I will tell you more later. Yup I was living in China and a bit in Tibet. I'm lately again keeping in mind that Tibetan tradition. It's important from my current point of view. I was a fool when I was at the age of 35-40.

Day 1st of 21 days challenge.

Accomplished everything according to plan. Worked on my plan on how to get a more paid job, earn enough money for the future (as I know it'll be good to stay here after summer as I'm alone here and dark autumn and winter time makes me depressed). In the late afternoon I did a solo MuayThai workout (as I can't afford a gym with a heavy bag and other equipment it is 30 EUR a month (if not using a sauna and other extras)without equipment at the nearby lake. Stretching. And approx 1 hour walk in the forest.

I was feeling happy at the end of the day.

Tbh in the evening I got quite stressed as I started to think again about my current life and financial situation (I'm eating once a day lately... dinner. I prepare it myself. In the morning and during the day I drink a lot of green tea). That's my short story about today. I want to follow my new daily routine as I'm sure it will improve my mental, physical etc wellbeing and who knows maybe a miracle will happen and I will find a better paid job. Thanks to everyone reading this. Good Morning or Good Night depending on the time zone you are in now. For me it is time to sleep.

PS Picture unrelated taken approx 10 years ago when I was living nearby the Baltic sea (the brother of my grandfather lived there. He was sent to Gulag after WW2 when our country was occupied by the USSR. He returned after 25 years from Siberia. But it's another story. I will try to write more about my own past etc later. GN

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Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.

- Rabindranath Tagore

Discipline outlasts motivation in the journey towards achievement.

That's true.

Need to cut out all the distractions.

And focus on a few "things" that will allow me to move forward. Step by step.

Late GM from the other side of the world.

Have a great week!

Have a great weekend everyone!

I'm working today...

Unrelated picture from sunset at Baltic sea yrs ago...

Dreaming to be able to go to the gym again... when it'll be possible...60€ a month is a lot in my current situation can't afford yet hopefully after few months health is getting better step by step. Working in forest cutting trees on the one hand is job but being in nature heals. #Nostr #ZBD #zap Thanks for your kind attention. Enjoy your weekend whoever reads that...

Thank you so very much. I was not ok latest months due to my health. I'm getting better step by step. Tbh I was in quite deep depression this time. I was also shocked that the last few ppl I had good relationship have in country I live passed away. So I met my 55th birthday alone. I wasn't celebrating. I had weird feeling. I don't know how to explain more deeply as my English isn't good enough. My father passed away when he was 56. Yup, I'm alone irl already long months. It's very different when you don't have ppl irl to talk with. Sometimes it's feeling that mind goes crazy. It's difficult to explain. I I'm step by step getting my health back. I was on bed almost 3 months due to health. I do need to sort out my life situation in nearest months. To start physical activities, training step by step. I'm in difficulties to find job in Latvia due to my age. They say I'm too old. It's stressful tbh. If you can advice some way how to earn money online I would be very thankful. I'm not a beggar. I want and do need a possibility to earn at least 1300€ a month during summer months and till the end of the year. Then I will be able to relocate. I'm sorry for such a reply. I'm now trying to get familiar with nostr.

My very best wishes to you. Yup. I suffer from insomnia heaps. My past memories visit me in my dreams. My friends who passed away. I'm trying to live and be in the present moment but it's easier to say than in reality. Thanks once more for happy Birthday wishes 🙏

I'm not okay lately. It'll be my 55 birthday on April 19th. It's easy to say never give up. I've been on bed due to my health last months. I starting to walk again. Thanks to everyone for being with me. It was cold winter here. It's very different when you understand that you are alone.

I'm not ok these last months due to my health. I wish I will have willpower to post daily. Something like diary. I'm fed up with Twitter. I will just try to post how I'm. I don't expect ppl to follow me. I just want to be honest. I will be 55 yrs old in April 19th. I don't have family and friends passed away. I'm alone in this world.

It was good Sunday. There's already a bit of snow as temperature is going below zero degrees Celsius at nights.

In countryside I'm living now roads are covered with black ice ( I don't know if you know what it means tbh).

I'm running again every single day. On the weekdays in the morning 10-15km. After running usual routine is #MuayThai solo workout outside in the nature, then at home stretching etc. Afterwards work whole day. At the evening again #MuayThai but indoors again solo training as there's no #MuayThai gym. At least I have heavy bag. Haven't been training with other #MuayThai practitioners already for months as there is no one who practise martial arts. I guess people think I am a bit crazy as I'm not communicating much asI don't have common interests with people here, not using alcohol etc. just living alone as I don't have family, kids, relatives and my few true friends passed away yrs ago. I hope one day I will be able to afford (I'm too poor to afford it now)to move away from here. My today's run below. I understand it's not smart post. Just talking myself out a bit. What else...

#study #Bitcoin #NeverGiveUp.

My very best wishes to all good people here on #ZBD #Nostr

PS As I've mentioned before I am from Baltic states (ex-USSR country) and it is not easy to earn/save enough money to move forward as it's necessary at least 3-4 thousand USD.

It's impossible to save extra money here as all goes to covering my living expenses. And I live very simple working hard.