It was my 26th birthday today and I’m glad I could get this much self reflection done.
Excerpts from Marcus
From writer
Mark Mason I learnt to accept that I may die, so I should live by my own rules and stand by my choices as they are all I truly am.
From Mathematician Nassim Teleb, I learnt to adjust for ruin in the financial markets and be on the look out for black swan events.
From writer Kafka I learnt to not get all my personal motivation from family as everyone will be just fine without me.
From Twitter poster Fishbowlofsoup I learnt it’s okay to post your most intrusive liberally as it might just be what someone out there needs to read
From YouTuber Exurb1a I learnt to just start, and if you keep at it long enough your first draft will be your worst work.
From modern Philosopher Alan watts, I learnt to just Be and not try to have control over everything going on around me.
From Photographer Ale I learnt the beauty in curating your own style and breaking new boundaries
From Artist Sheriff I learnt the thrilling feel of betting on one’s self, one’s craft, and having unwavering self belief.
From new friend Grey I learnt the Geometric returns that comes with Aiming absurdly high. Also about the importance of seizing opportunities as they aren’t as ubiquitous as they seem.
From new friend Supo mi I learnt to be strong in the face of adversity and not bleed on those who didn’t hurt you.
From Twitter user Mubayy I learnt that there are asymmetric rewards in playing in uncharted territories, regardless of how unpopular they might be at the time.
From Tg user Odum I learnt the act of stating your discomfort while still salvaging the relationship.
From twitter user Udo I learnt there are unlimited rewards to befriending people of different social or financial status than you.
From Tg user Sway I learnt the importance of symbiotic relationships in money games and how people would be compelled to make help you make money if you’ve ever helped them make money.
From Tg user turned friend Fayiz I learnt the priceless benefits of curating your own taste
From my Old friend Qidos, I learnt to always talk about a field I’m passionate about, you never know who is learning from all what you’re talking about.
From my old friend Shin I learnt to always try to get yourself out of a difficult situation, to not always sit with the cards you’ve been dealt, to try to reshuffle and get better cards.
From my old friend Boicovers I learnt the importance of fostering brotherly love amongst your pairs, who you’re lending an helping hand to today, may be in a position to save your life the next.
From my old friend Sno I learnt to always try to make the most unconventional friendships as they may lead you to your true path.
From my old friend Furaw I learnt to never forget your roots and what the goal of working has always been, to never get swayed by a new identity that comes with increased status or power.
My old fling Oreo taught me never to spot evil or identify with it, the meek may not inherit the world, but they’d be surrounded by the most amazing people
Ann taught me you can have multiple personalities, you can be a generalist and still excel exceeding well in both worlds
New friend Duinnz taught me you can always start over and mold the life you want for yourself, without any slip ups or distractions.
My Beating heart The Stoic, taught me to always do great work, and to show people any glimpse of great light you have spotted in them, maybe that’s all they need to know, that they are capable and can be great things.
From my friend Rehk, I learnt to forge your path regardless of how unpopular it might be at the time, the people will always always come around.
From my friend emPsuedoNerd I learnt loyalty to friends, to always know a friend can bet on you to be by their corner everytime.
From my friend Sativa I learnt aggressively being yourself never diluting yourself for anybody , regardless of how unusual the cards you’ve been dealt are, the true ones will accept you just for who you are.
From my Friend Bobs, I learnt to always seek another level in what you enjoy (work or play) there’s always an higher level, a better way, a more competitively enjoyable to way to play or do, seek it and be it.
From my friend Vichelleeons, I learnt to always walk into a place shoulder high, the people will give you as much respect as you’ve accorded yourself, self confidence opens many doors, believe you belong somewhere and you somewhat do.
From my Father, l I learnt to know when you’re lucky, when you’ve been dealt a good hand in terms of people and to appreciate it and stick by it till the end.
From my Mother I learnt abstinence and delayed gratification, there’s always a time in the future where you’d enjoy things to the fullest, I also learnt to always finish what you started, regardless of how tough it looks at first, it will always always reward you.
From my eldest brother Micheal I learnt self Sacrificing for the people around you, when you’re blessed let everyone around you be equally as blessed.
From my other Brother Peter I learnt leaning towards your strength and maxing it out, you won’t always be blessed with full Xp, you’re supposed to use your gifts how best you can
From my closest brother John, I learnt it’s okay to be non conformist and live by your own rules, have your own friends, listen to your own music and grow your own food.
Life happens anywhere you live
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I also erm, don’t think I’d ever get through to Funmbi
Wtff🤣🤣
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It’s my birthday in a few days
Finally going to a location I’ve wanted to for a while, with a very good friend I made in Abk, we have so much alike and have bonded over so many things
I think I’d have a good one
Also confident I get a good news on the trip
26 Off to a decent start
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Still lost
Taking a walk deliberating on what 1x risk 100x reward industry I can delve in.
I finally ticked off all my external motivation concerning family and I can say 26 will be the year I begin to live for self actualization
Good❤️
Got mom a car
Started dating someone I think I really love
Made 6 figures
Developed my agency more
Got partially over my social anxiety
Bad🥴
Had a very bad breakup that messed with me alot
Hurt someone very close to me
Didn’t achieve all I had planned for the year due to inconsistency
My obsessive nature was at full throttle
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What makes you genuinely happy?
Music -go to concerts… listen to songs… sing… dance
Art.., go to galleries, make art, collect art, be art
I’d update as I go
Does it feel like you’re failing rn? No?
Does it feel like you’d fail?
Erm yea actually maybe
Doom thinking? Delulu thinking?
Working towards migration
The country of the maple leaf not working
Trying with Edinburgh
Been making rather adult decisions
But does liquidating 90% of my active funds for education a smart thing to do?
I think yes
Some people have to reach out for >1000%
To do this
Watched Jordan’s documentary
The whole teams actually
It’s insane how good some peoples lore is
Even with all the hitch
God individualism is so beautiful
I ask for the strength to really pursue something
Erm I think I don’t want to rev longer with love
I want to do “love” things
I think I love her
I think she’s perfect wife
But, my path might lead to a different place
And there’s a dire wait needed
I also don’t exalt my sexual needs anymore
Which makes me feel so good.