I have heightened sexual pans and that’s when I think of Annie

I still think it’s unfair that she’s not talking about the PIE even after I stated how important it was

Just solidifies my whole mysterious visa disappearance lore.

It’s that time of the year again

I’m romanticizing traveling abroad, Canada

My biggest fear is finances and being hardworking enough to stay long term.

I know I can figure it out. I know I will figure it out

I haven’t gotten the house yet, lowkey don’t think I will now

I still know my house will be in Abk, but I’m focusing resources on personal development now rather than settling down.

And the best thing you can do for yourself from where I’m from is go someplace you can work and compete

“A diamond in the rough had no business being in the rough in the first place “

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To the land of the maple leaf

Where it’ll all make sense

Erm

Is life a constant of people shedding

The journey can be so great

You don’t have to submit to mediocrity

Finished a course

Hung with love

Still stuck up on Annie

Cactus

Where is this stress coming from?

That tattoo calling

Paw

Cat

Greek/roman words

Moms name

I’ve done 3 courses

But I’m finding it hard to pay)

(Not broke) for the most important one

This is a letter to say

I paid anyways and I’d ace it

How do you feel

Old

Wasted time

Sad and hallow

Am I making a big mistake?

Horny very

Scared of the future

Sore from the gym

About a year in Abeokuta

And asides the constant feeling I might have committed social suicide by moving to a “non habited backwaters by cool folks “

I dare say I love it?

All of my fears were mitigated by a “friend” I met here, I love the drives, the zero traffics, settling was easy, I could run within the estate, it’s great and I envision getting a house here soon.

None of my fears here came to past, and everything I thought I loved in ife asides the people can be replicated here.

I also love ish the local library(minus all the public holidays)

I will do just fine

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6more months

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But i hated the man I was becoming

I saw our relationship reflect glimpse of my parents and always fighting couples

I let too much of family and friends get in the way

We finally broke up

More like I broke up with her

I miss her

Genuinely

Everyday

And if hurts daily

Idk how I can go on

And do this to myself

Even the strongest things can’t make me not miss you

Trust me

I’ve tried

Went to a bar and asked the man for his strongest… potion

Asked the drug guy for his wildest strain

I miss uou and will never forget you

I hope these words are stored somewhere

I hope she can handle it

Saying the truth is very freeing

Lmaoo

Why are there bots in my mentions ?

I’ve been on this shit for way too long mane

Why haven’t I made it yet mane

Sigh

Feels like

I’m doing more things to engrave my place in this place

I don’t wanna be in

I also erm, don’t think I’d ever get through to Niniola

It’s my 25th birthday in 4 days and I’m not sure I wanna spend it with “friends”

Nor alone nor with strangers.

I want to keep up the lore but also want to go to these remote location with a significant other, but I don’t want to with Annie? She’s different now

It’s clear and I don’t want to be a one way trip to “pleasure island” and our relationship is devoid of anything else.

I also I’m scared it might come across as sad, leaving your true friends and hanging out with strangers in the hope of forming some “connection” with the world.

But I’d never know, it’s also not the best location, there’s not much to do thag I enjoy doing alone.

I foresee just getting very drunk and anti social at these events

Maybe I cancel and stay back in Abk?

But I suspect… I would regret not keeping up the lore. Idk I do know, let’s see.

I think this might become a thing.

First I’m going to say, grateful for the year, I still feel as lost as I felt 11 months ago but I got to do a lot of things and after made a significant change in my families story.

So without further yapdoo

Good 😄

Got mom a house

Got a car

Move to my “ideal” location

Took lots of trips, saw jide

Made proper money

Bad 🫠

Lost covers

Didn’t join the gym/read as much or take care of myself as much

Fell out of love

Lost friends

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One more year.

Looking alright nostr:note1h94dk40lfq0plyasehssrw02xs7drgnzz4hncwt652l0g3qj55qqr49s3q