i had the same issue with autocorrect. to be clear, i was just referring to 27 club phenomenon, not giving advice. i also changed careers at 27

at 27. either die or figure it out the next life

I wish it could do that for me. I have noticed that with just a few sips of a beer, I could work much better and more creatively.

I explain this away as perhaps I'm in a state of enjoyment or a little bit calms just enough to focus.

I gravitated more to alcohol than weed because I can dose it better. I don't think that's a good thing of course. I rarely drink anymore.

I'm pretty excited about body mechanics as a way of regulating mental states and looking more into this.

Since I love a good conspiracy:

is ITIL just a way of making sure intelligence agencies have an easier job with data aggregation?

Haha, that seems like a common problem. The stigma from normies is real. I have a replaced my stigma with a serious respect for the stuff.

I found that I had great ideas in that state while wandering outside, but they only exist in that world, and I don't know how to pull them through to this one.

I was reminded of being stoned and walking outside by 2 little kids who were fascinated with playing in the pebbles on a bike trail to the chagrin of their parents who were trying to get them to walk. I realized, they look like they are stoned.

They were appreciating the different shapes and sizes and colors of the pebbles that the rest of us are just walking on.

Lake in Blue Ridge Mountains (Appalachia)

Sailors in the Smokies (Appalachian mountains)

so i learned this week that cannabis is apparently like Catnip for people who may be prone to OCD symptoms. I always knew I was highly sensitive to cannabis, but I didn't know this.*

The funny thing is, I may owe my falling down the rabbit hole to my long-time partner's prolific smoking habit. At some point, on this journey of obsessing over details of perfect money, I started asking myself: "why am i so obsessed with this?"

Now, I'm onto scrupulosity OCD, starving my partner of sex. And for the first time ever, he stopped smoking. It's either salvation or OCD, and I haven't figured that out yet.

God has to have a sense of humor.

*heart goes out to people who experience OCD, and I'm not trying to make light of anyone's struggles

I get a "Not Found message" when i try opening...

My Impression from Lyndon Baines Johnson Presidential Library is...

Everything is eerily the same or an echo of the same 60 years later. Same slogans, same worries about Russia, Israel/Palestine. Same "vote like your life depends on it" type of hype.

However in 1960s Texas my partner would have been considered black and unable to dine in the same restaurant with me. Things have gotten much better in many ways.

From John F. Kennedy's speech "Watchmen on the Walls of Freedom":

"There will always be dissident voices heard in the land, expressing opposition without alternatives, finding fault but never favor, perceiving gloom on every side and seeking influence without responsibility Those voices are inevitable.

"But today other voices are heard in the land-voices preaching doctrines wholly unrelated to reality, wholly unsuited to the sixties, doctrines which apparently as- sume that words will suffice without weapons, that vituperation is as good as victory and that peace is a sign of weakness. At a time when the national debt is steadily being reduced in terms of its burden on our economy, they see that debt as the greatest single threat to our security At a time when we are steadily reducing the number of federal employees serving every thousand citizens, they fear those supposed hordes of servants far more than the actual hordes of opposing armies.

"We cannot expect that everyone, to use the phrase of a decade ago, will "talk sense to the American people." But we can hope that fewer people will listen to nonsense. And the notion that this nation is headed for defeat through deficit, or that strength is but a matter of slogans, is nothing but just plain nonsense.

"I want to discuss with you today the status of our strength and our security because this question clearly calls for the most responsible qualities of leadership and the most enlightened products of scholarship. For this nation's strength and security are not easily or cheaply obtained-nor are they quickly and simply explained There are many kinds of strength and no one kind will suffice. Overwhelming nuclear strength cannot stop a guerrilla war Formal pacts of alliance cannot stop internal subversion, displays of material wealth cannot stop the disillusionment of diplomats subjected to discrimination Above all, words alone are not enough The United States is a peaceful nation. And where our strength and determination are clear, our words need merely to convey conviction, not belligerence. If we are strong, our strength will speak for itself If we are weak, words will be of no help."

"you cannot hide from your problems, you have to face them"

"these abbey walls were not meant to hide behind"

~Reverend Mother to Maria

Npubs that give the most pleasure also give the most pain. It must be part of the algorithm.

What is Nostr: hyper-efficient funnel for 6 month conversion... to what?

A state of learning, self-questioning, healing. Perhaps disconnecting and reconnecting with in-person Npubs.

A powerful tool, to be used with respect for other users and gratitude to whoever created it. and whatever Creator created its creators.

Thank you, we shall see. The recommendation I get back is to watch a video about OCD. I don't think it's that. But it's a good reminder to ground myself and spend a lot of time outdoors.

The joke's on me.

I want to follow Jesus Christ.

In the darkness of confusion I see a glimmer of a cross with a circle around the crux, guiding my way.

Beliefs are weightless, invisible. Changing them is painful. Watching other people's response to my changing beliefs is also painful.

To follow, there must be a footstep in the direction of the wall. I don't know how to get through the wall, but straight into the wall I must go.

The first person to tell is my partner of 6 years.

"I want to be a follower of Jesus Christ"

I will rephrase that as "I am a follower of Jesus Christ".

I can't make my partner happy. I've tried.

The first rule of life is "respect the divine geometries"

next rule of life is "respect the divine programming".

The sacred hardware of Man and Woman. Sure there are exceptions like Intersex. Then there are the gays. We will get to that.

But the sacred geometries are like a solid rock. The ship of our societal ego plows against the rock. We pretend not to see the gash in hull.

Then there is the sacred software. Somewhere in the first few lines of Universal Basic Life programming is the institution of Marriage.

Man + Woman --> function Marriage and the return output: the child. These few simple lines of code perpetuate human consciousness.

I'm quite sure that this code will last longer than any society that attempts to recompile this portion of the human programming stack. After all it's " a tale as old as time".

why this obsession with marriage?

because the question I'm dealing with is: what's wrong with two gay men living as if they were married?

I have the answer from Christ "respect the institution of marriage".

I don't have the particulars quite yet. However, I'm 99.9 % sure that even a loving, gay relationship is not in this framework.

My logic pushes back, " what's wrong with 2 same-sex people taking care of each other. after all only 0.1% of a relationship is about sex, which is the only thing that is in dispute here. the rest of a relationship is communicating, dealing with sickness, sharing, caring, cooking, eating together...all things that are good no matter who you ask".

my heart says, "the 0.1% is corruption. Do we want bitcoin with 0.1% proof of stake? before long, the 0.1% overtakes the 99.9% with it's twisted ideas."

my logic says, "but why would you throw a healthy consensual relationship away to be single, lonely. after all, isn't dementia a risk? Nowadays there's porn risk so, you're just going to be more of a social media addict"

my heart says , "trust Jesus. if he has the strength to change your beliefs, do you not trust he has the strength to elevate your discipline."

and the worse part is:

Who am I throwing my partner away too. Surely Jesus doesn't want to save one person by embittering another?

What incantations are these,R?

Im still sore over this stupid roast AI thing.

This is what it told me:

"Sometimes it feels like you might just out-verbose the very concept of 'too long; didn't read.' "

Is there any insurance I can claim against offensive AI

If Saylor is right and banks can custody Bitcoin within 4 years, and the money made in local economies stay in local economies...

I see it like coals of a fire that are allowed to breath oxygen again. The fire might just be so intense we grow our way out of deficit and then some!

North Carolina paper mill town

Thank you AverageJoe!

Actually I probably just don't know how it works. Maybe senators need to request lower interest rates to lay logical/legal framework for Fed to act. It's probably democratic formalities that Ms Warren was kind enough to complete on behalf of the nation.

But too bad she doesn't join the Bitcoin party. Who knows, maybe she's next?