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spinster is not even a real term

thru the epoch of time the human species has been on this planet

it is a very recent western cultural construction used mostly to threaten & coerce women into making choices that dont feel right

what have i been?

what am i?

a daughter & auntie

roleplaying a spinster

spinster math

is not auntie math

is not uncle math

is not mom math

is not dad math

is not sister math

is not brother math

is not irish grandma math

is not german grandpa math

is not mohawk math

is not mohawk grandparent math

logical reasons?

being a mother

having children rely on you

someone who drinks & has guns in the house?

fair point & point taken

& it is a different thing when people are parents

am i a mother at the moment

dissenting sure

hating that friend, fine

me caring about that, absolutely

all normal things

preventing me by force? insisting i dont? thats not a partner that's a jailor then

why doesnt he trust me that i would never be involved with someone

who insisted on controlling my relationships with longterm people in my

life like???

& cultural misogyny re: his neck of the woods

this is also abundantly clear cos dan, hearing that, hearing that clarity,

literally tried to make a move

kinda wild he only ever tries

once he can feel im gone

if im single he doesnt give a shit

cos not going anywhere

im around & available as his friend

only only only the times im out

does he try to pull me back in

like he literally is not attracted to me

it has never been a romance thing

he just doesnt want to lose "mama gillian"

& he is running the belief that if a woman is dating someone she cant have male friends

like that is his math

that's what nadia is like for me

that's what jack is like for me

that's what anan is like for me

i am better for it

if when relating to someone

you feel healthier?

you are in joy more often?

whatever that looks like for you?

(dancing & singing for me)

that is prolly healthy & a good relationship

as in, if you feel goldilocks comfortable & it isnt too hot or cold or hard or easy