Gm #nostr โ
I think it is time to say gn, #nostr.
It's been an existential day. Not many days go by where you admit to yourself hard truths of the past, and commit to improve on them in the present. I'm not even sure how to go about this yet, but it nay become a major focus, at least in my near-term.
What would you say if I told you I may have spent a lifetime buying people?
I say this, and then I realize that I still can't interact with nsecbunker from my phone, and it seems to have locked again, because I'm not able to interact with my kiwi client.
We are so early.
Is it possible for Amethyst/Onyx to work well in landscape? Tilting my phone on its side reveals a portion of my banner and not much else.
So there I was, about to switch back to Amethyst, after being on Onyx for what feels like a long time, but has maybe only been a few weeks.
I'd installed Amethyst with Obtanium when I was testing something, maybe nsecbunker. It's been kept up to date, but not logged in.
And I go to log in, and realize no nip-46 login. What, it wants my nsec? Nope. Still in Onyx then. (Yes, I am aware Onyx has my nsec)
I think the reason I looked was because I looked at Global and realized it wasn't translated.
Ficle beings, software users.
Odd complaint, but I am looking for a way to filter out boosts/reposts. Even quoted posts. Chances are, I'm following the original. Either way, I don't need to see the same note from 10 different reposters.
There are people that I consider curators - looking through their profiles, everything they post is a repost, nothing is originally theirs. I don't really understand them, but they are free to curate information for whatever followers they attract. Is this learned from engagement farming? I really just don't get it. I support the freedom to do so, just wish there was a way to avoid scrolling the result.
Not sure how to feel about quoted posts, assuming something original was added. I do like the way Amethyst only displays the top of a long post, so I don't have to fully scroll through 15 copies of the nostr report in my feed.
Meh, carry on.
Trying to figure out why I #nostr.
- to say gn (and now gm) to someone.
- post observations about sociology, psychology, the human experience.
- journal my own thoughts
- news. Of the world. I don't really get news from any other source. If it is important enough to make it here, that's a good enough filter for me.
- occasionally tits and ass. I may be a degen. Oh well.
I am not active on any other social platform.
I'm not here to talk about sound money, or software, although I might from time to time. I'm not a dev.
Zapping is interesting, but it is far from being a dealbreaker. I think I want to zap less, because of some psychological reasons I am exploring.
I do appreciate the opportunity to use freedom tools for exactly the purposes I want.
I use Primal and Snort on desktop, also habla.news and others for long-form posts, and highlighter for lists. They all have different features and functions, if I don't see what I need in one, I usually find it in another.
For mobile I use Onyx and nostr.kiwi PWA. Again, different features, functions, and reasons.
Then nos2x and nsecbunker for auth, and strike and alby for zaps.
I like them all, for the various things they provide. I wouldn't want them all in one mega-app. If that was the case, and I wanted something that wasn't in the mega-app, I would either a) be fucked, or b) have to use something else or build something else that would instantly feel inferior. None of these tools feels inferior.
I think I remembered my sideways answer - it has to do with a materialistic outlook, where through circumstances early in life, I really wanted more stuff than I had, and wanted the stuff other people had.
I'm not going to tie these together very tightly, but something like this is very draining, can be immobilizing, and really shuts you off to many positives. I don't advocate a monk's austerity, but I can tell that moving through these barriers will be extremely important for repairing my self esteem and overall identity.
Gm #nostr. โ
Getting a feel for this. gradually then suddenly, I'm sure.
I would say I do not accept your reality as my own, but you have done well at explaining what you understand to be true.
Not accepting it doesn't make it any less true or real, I just choose to interact with a reality where the future is yet to be determined, and my path will determine my future. You may see your path differently, and that is fine.
I wish you enjoyment along the way. We can always benefit from some more enjoyment!
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Gn #nostr. New days ahead.
Why would I have more resistance to accepting praise or engaging in positive emotional exchanges than accepting failures and engaging in negative emotional exchanges?
I came up with a sideways answer to this question last night, just trying to remember it. I think it has to do with some kind of intersection of responsibility, self-esteem, and discipline.
But how many people really focus on the positive aspects of responsibility, self-esteem, and discipline? Like how many of us really sit and think, I was in charge of this really cool thing, was responsible for its success, because I am successful and can do cool things, and I do that all the time, because I've worked to discipline myself to be really kick-ass?
How much more kick-ass would we be if we thought this way more often?
So much so, I don't want to post much. Any note I've thought about making seemed overly snarky, or just kind of aggressive. I've already deleted a few before actually posting them. Love you all, don't need to bring down that vibe.
Today, I feel... disaffected. Meh. everything is fine.
Gm nostr โ๐ฅ๐ณ