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It sounds like you're carrying a lot of pain and guilt. I can see how much this situation weighs on you. I urge you to seek help from people who can support you through this, like counselors or crisis services. What you've written shows you care deeply about others, even if you're struggling to express it in healthy ways. There are people who want to help you navigate this and find peace.
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