So, I kicked today's ass.
You know how I said I didn't want to walk in or out oh that hospital again to see mt MIL? I volunteered and went today. I happened to be there for visits from all of her doctors and got to be her advocate. It was something I could do and it turned out well.
I got back home about 1pm and no one had requested anything and my meeting was canceled so I thought about what's the last thing I would do if something was on my plate at work, and decided it was training. So, I did my Hipaa, fire, and hazardous materials training. We have to do them yearly. My comment was "I hate to think how much we spend on this training, yearly."
The arm has had some issues. The legs hurt if I fired the muscles, so I walk in stiff-legged steps, which is literally straight out of the article I read 30 years ago. It's strange to see each step come to pass. The last steps are very scary but I think I can be spared the worst of I just stay at home. It might mean less documentation but an easier exit. I'm not sure I'll explain that. The contrasts are quite unbelievable and the one where I'm not at home is a lot more painful.
How quickly we can lose our lead in science.
The country is over. Whatever happens from here, it's only getting crazier.
The crazy will seem routine. That's the whole point of it. Numb you into submission.
I'm blogging my experience with a medical condition that our centralized medical system redacted from literature (under ethical concerns I assume) such that I can find no one that knows anything about it and it hides from normal tests.
I'm a data architect of 30 years, ChemE, and a believer in system and referential. integrity. Anything I say is the truth or how I see it (sometimes I'm wrong). Everything about my story is true.
More on my medical condition and how bizarre it is.
The article I originally read, while dying in a mental institution from a different undiagnosed condition (one that is mandatory in order for the treatment I affected to cause the condition I have now) in that article, it made the condition out to be this battle between this ancient fungus, candidiasis and the pituitary and endocrine system.
But here's the thing, once it gets to the point you get to after this treatment, you've kicked off a runaway reaction. The system runs, but it's destabilized. The pituitary goes from a passive role to an active role and begins actively controlling hormones with a specific goal in mind - keeping circulating electrolytes normal. Typically, this decision, this process is controlled at the kidneys. But, in this, the kidneys have caused the initial set of conditions that kicked it off. In my case, I had SIADH.
It then takes three decades for the ensuing fight. But it's more like a dance. Everything is set in stone, it just takes ages for each phase. I think it's too long of a dance. Too precise. I think it could be co-evolution. I think, just maybe, at some recent point in our ancestry, humans had a system that much more frequently worked the way mine does as a dance between two different things, neither with consciousness but still actively waging war for decades.
I linked your video at the end. Consider sharing my story to preserve some redacted science in a distributed way. The science was redacted by the centralized medical system. I'm real. My story is the truth. Not one physician I've found believes me, and the time I have to share my story grows short. nostr:nprofile1qqsg86qcm7lve6jkkr64z4mt8lfe57jsu8vpty6r2qpk37sgtnxevjcpzdmhxw309akx7cmpd35x7um58g6rsd3eqy28wumn8ghj7ct9va5hxtn4w3ux7tn0dejsgxtdrz
GM Nostr. Nostr is the future of social media.
I'm going to be posting frequently.
If you're here, you believe in many of the same things I do.
My background is as a ChemE with 30 years of data architecture experience. I'm Medical Informatics faculty at a four-year medical college.
Last night, I was thinking about the cycles of my condition and the parallels with the cycles with our economy, the world, and bitcoin.
All these things have cycles. None of these systems are actually stable systems. In ChemE you take a process and controls class. You learn all about systems and how to modulate them by adjusting inputs and outputs. You learn how to recognize if a system is stable or unstable, batch or steady-state.
The Fourth Turning is a real thing. Our world is a system. It is inherently unstable with the current inputs and outputs. You can see that, over time, in the debt cycles.
Bitcoin adoption is still early, and so it comes in cycles as things overheat and fall back.
Similarly, my physiology is going through cycles caused by an treatment that brought about an interaction between my immune system and candidiasis.
It's a bizarre story, and I've tried to document it on my website. Jimcraddock.com
Here, as I go through what is most certainly the final portions of my condition, I will record the changes and share my journey through the thoroughly deficient medical system. Yes, after 30 years trying to explain what I have while understanding the basics from an actual medical textbook, no one has ever heard of it. It's incredibly bizarre to have something that science redacted, especially when it can so insidiously hide from tests.
How does it hide? In short, the problem is my system stores excess electrolyte in interstitial spaces. So, blood tests show normal levels while abnormal levels exist in the space outside of circulation. Over time, this condition results in dramatic loss of blood volume, hidden by, among other things, the elecyrolytes pushed into the flesh.
How does this take place? Changes in pH, circulation, pressures, and hormones caused by a pituitary put into a state of overdrive.
Why post here?
This is the future of social media. It's inevitable, I think.
New pains and a few spasms in my right forearm in the last few minutes.
I've decided I'm going to blog here about every single thing that happens.
Think about sharing. If you get to the end and are intrigued, I'm a Data Architect of thirty years. If you are in development, you know what that means. It means I live for Truth.. Data integrity is my number one design concern. My story is real. I don't like lies, they have bad referential integrity.
I have a condition that medicine has redacted from science. My journey is my proof as I've lived through the exact steps predicted in the originatl article I read 30 years ago when I saved my life using science I found in a diagnostic manual.
My story is unbelievable. I would not believe someone could find and replicate an old treatment that resulted in saving that person's life for a few decades but instigated a Rube-Golberg-life autoimmune cascade that would take three decades to conclude while passing through distinct phases of systemic breakdowns that would be hidden by an overly aggressive pituitary and candidiasis in a battle where the candidiasis maximizes ATP consumed. Oh, and I was in a mental institution at the time. If I tell you how, there is no chance you would believe me. Yet it is all true.
1) I'm not going to whine. F this redacted condition.
2) I'm going to document it. Every new thing it brings down on me as no doctor has found anything.
3) Watch this video. You'll thank me later.
I find it frustrating and amusing that anyone thinks Trump, or Elon for that matter, has one iota of belief in what they say. They are sociopathic narcissists.
A sociopathic narcissist combines traits of both narcissistic personality disorder and antisocial personality disorder, characterized by a lack of empathy, a high need for control, and a tendency to manipulate and exploit others for personal gain. They often display a grandiose sense of self-importance, a need for attention, and a disregard for the feelings of others.
Basically, they only see others as a means to an end. Think about everything Trump has ever said or done and you may see it.
Sometimes, all the pain, the mobility issues, the digestion issues, the lack of clarity, the zero support from a medical system that has redacted my condition, it all catches up to me at odd moments and the tears will suddenly appear.
I've had a lot of existential crises. Early on, the very infrequent transitions, as my body figured out a new way to compensate for the electrolyte issues, caused a much higher level of freak out. During these times, hormones are changing, pH is changing, inevitably the candidiasis re-emerges from hiding to cause even more issues and nothing shows up on tests.
After decades of it and now after the last three years of it all unwinding in an almost continuous state of constant change, I'm much better at coping and just living my life. But it's all still in there, and on top of it all is the frustration that the medical establishment redacted this knowledge making every physician and online resource useless.
So, I just document and deal with things that would literally drive any other person insane from the complete inability to perceive anything is wrong.
You want a rheumatologist appointment? Six months and they will never have heard of it. So you're just wasting time. They only test for what they know. See how insidious redaction can be? If you have something that doesn't show up on tests, it must not exist, to them. I'm sure if it was a pandemic, they would care but one guy? Not worth it.
Sunday! Must finish taxes today. Not a bad job:
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On Sundays, I talk to my 18 year-old son of he didn't come home from college for the weekend.
He's a CS major, which concerns me some due to AI, but he's minoring in math and wants to pursue robotics which I think should work out.
Plus, while I don't have 7 figures in bitcoin investments, I have what should be enough for him if he's forced to HODL. So, I've setup an educational trust that gets those assets plus a decent life policy. He gets control at 28.
Where do you think bitcoin will be in ten years? Either zero or well over $1,000,000. He will lead a different life than I lived.
My father died during Operation Linebacker II. So, I never really knew him. But, that meant the VA paid for my ChemE degree. He's got to have a father for the most important years, and he gets a free education. He might even have a ticket on the Sovereign Individual train. 🚂 If you invest in Bitcoin, that train runs on parallel tracks to the famous train of nostr:nprofile1qqsw4v882mfjhq9u63j08kzyhqzqxqc8tgf740p4nxnk9jdv02u37ncpz4mhxue69uhkummnw3ezumtpd35kutn0dekqz9rhwden5te0dehhxarjwdshganp9ehx2aqkrad8w
Saturday is beaten.
I did NOT get tomatoes planted, but I managed to get some flowers planted and the garden weeded and raked.
We went to Karaoke. I sang Hey Jealousy and Beautiful Things (Acoustic).
It really hurts to sit down and get up. The glutes and legs are just tender of you push on them.
My goal is just to document as much of this redacted condition as possible. With what I leave behibd, maybe someone can find the science that was hidden.
and another one (with some issues 😂😁) for the biggest #nostr #artstr event!
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Love it.
Great TED Talk.
GM Nostr
Saturday
Another weekend. I'm glad to be here, but it isn't easy.
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I had no idea. It would be so much harder to walk into the hospital than it was just a few days ago. My legs are really affected.
I sent an message to my Cleveland Clinic doctor on Thursday and he responded, but it will take months to get in and I don't even want to travel in the shape I'm in today.
I'm hoping to plant tomatoes, today.
I made French toast for breakfast.
Still up at the hospital visiting my MIL. Honestly, I don't like how the system treats people near the end of life. I'm not going all Gattaca, but the system spends a LOT of the money on end of life care. It shouldn't be like that.
I hope to never spend another night in a hospital as a patient. They have no understanding of what's going on in my body and they have no hope of ding anything about it without listening first. If I go in, I fear they would do the wrong thing thinking it was the right thing.
My system is different due to my iatrogenic condition.
I'm dreading walking out of this hospital.
I'm up at the hospital to visit my MIL again.
My legs are much weaker than the last time. I had no idea they were this bad.
Until they aren't.
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Trump loses in the Supreme Court
They aren't happy, Mr Maga.
Under/Over when he tries Martial Law?
https://www.npr.org/2025/04/10/nx-s1-5358421/supreme-court-abrego-garcia-deportation-decision