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Running bitcoin core 25.1.0 FU money #gfy
Replying to Avatar Vyram Kraven

Another day feeling sicker then shit sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've been going through stages in my cycle of #depression I've been through a lot of things some things people should never go through.

People don't fathom how evil their actions can be the effect it causes on another person. I didn't believe #ptsd could have a profound effect I imagined it would be hearing noises & day dreaming of the events. #truthfully it's a lot more then that the best way to describe it is it feels like fingers running across your scalp soothing & relaxing but in that same exact moment of comfort you feel pain like nails digging into your head. It scared me because how do you describe feeling pleasure & pain in the same moment you can't it's like wtf?

I can't tell what bothers me more the soothing feeling or the pain. I can be going about my day perfectly fine nothing wrong & with the snap of the fingers i'm there stuck in that moment it feels like a shock go pull some fake gum i'll wait. It makes me cry when it happens I don't want to cry but it feels like a compultion I just have to.

I spend all night tossing & turning because I can't sleep I feel tortured I keep myself up till I black out because when I lay down as soon as I put my head on the pillow it feels like I just put a knife in the back of my head. Everything just comes surging to the surface & I think it's because laying down head on pillow is a sign of relaxation & comfort it bothers me I can't have it. I'm scared of things that don't make sense because I feel damaged inside.

I try to get by I work make some money not enough of course i'm always starving & lucky to get one meal a day. #America has become more fucked up to Americans & I am the living proof of that. On top of all that the cost of living keeps rising but do our checks nooo. It doesn't matter what anyone preaches crypto that, stocks here, invest there. People who show you rather then tell you are real if someone ain't showing you they are just getting your hopes up.

With my cycles I fluctuate back & forth from wanting to be a progressive person to wanting to die. I been through so much I am convinced that I am on this earth only to endure everyones pain. So many people hurt me, took advantage of me, beat me while i'm down, & i'm just hurt. You know sometimes I wish I could just get a hug. You would be surprised to know I haven't had a hug in 5 years. People have become so shallow & isolating yeah I haven't given or gotten a hug in 5 years.

I wish someone would help me no matter how hard I try it's never good enough & I was not born with privliage like many others. I feel I am a slave everything's out of my control my desires are ignored, I am doubted everywhere I go or dismissed like I am incompetent I always have to prove i'm right & when I am I get condescended.

I really wish I could snap out of this mental cycle because before the bad things happened to me I was fine but now I walk around everyday feeling like damaged goods & i'm not good for anyone or anything. I feel defeated, beaten, & unworthy because I am not loved, cared for, or appreciated. I'm the small percent that slips through the cracks takes all abuse & shit life can give you. Do I ever get a break no it just continues like a domino effect. One day I pray I am free I hope God will bless me & somehow through someway I get a million dollars & then a sign that says now go fix your life around with this for you have endured it all.

Not everyone has parents who love them or siblings who give a fuck about you. Not everyone has money to give you things you need like clothes, food, a car, or socks. Not everyone grew up with I believe in you, I love you, I know you can do it. Some people grow up around I hate you, I can't stand you, imbosile go to your room, I wish I never had you, your not capable of anything, useless mentally ill imbocile.

I never had a chance at the start & I didn't hang with the cool kids because being poor kept me apart even at a young age kids know where the social classes of society are. The question is does anyone in humanity left have a heart?

#sick #mental #ill #will #ptsd #suffering #depressed #needmoney #needhelp #givemehopeordeath #endmypain #hurtinf #pain #painful #Bitcoin #BTC #Nostr #Lightning #Zap #Zapathon #Zaps #Plebs #Plebchain #GrowNostr #Nostriches #Money⚡ #Zapatime #Happy #RideThe⚡ #Zapstr #Plebdrive #Zapdrive #zapchain #bitchain #boost #share #boosted #bitdrive $boost

Hang in there brother. I hear you. Your being matters.

Replying to Avatar Samson Mow

Keep calm and HODL #Bitcoin.

Everyone seems to be overreacting to the Samourai arrests, the FBI PSA, and Phoenix leaving the US. Here's my attempt to break it down.

Samourai

You have to unpack all of the different elements. Could this be a state attack on self-custody and privacy? Maybe. Probably not.

There are a few components here that need to be evaluated on their own.

1⃣ Samourai was a self-custodial wallet

2⃣ Samourai was a mixer

3⃣ Samourai was providing normal people with privacy

4⃣ Samourai were knowingly marketing the service to criminals and flaunting that fact

Reading the charges, it seems like #4 is pretty cut and dry for this case. Their getting arrested for #4, doesn't automatically mean #1, #2, #3 are under siege as well. If Samourai was a taco stand laundering money and bragging about it, I'm sure they would be taken down too.

They may be accused of running a money transmitter now, but that may or may not stick. We'll find out in the trial.

All that said, we should always be vigilant to attempts to erode privacy and the ability to self-custody. It just does not seem that this fight is *that* fight.

FBI PSA

Seems pretty normal that the FBI would advise people to use compliant services, and the entire announcement seems to revolve around potential disruptions due to Samourai being taken down, and potentially others in the future. Given they took action, they have to post some bulletin about it.

Remember that when people lose funds or have funds stolen from them, they do go to the FBI for help. From their point of view, the best thing for people to do is use compliant services where they can potentially help.

The announcement concludes saying that services that purposely break the law will be investigated - so again we go back to #4 above. This is nothing new, and self-custody is not being criminalized.

Phoenix Leaving

As nostr:npub1sg6plzptd64u62a878hep2kev88swjh3tw00gjsfl8f237lmu63q0uf63m said, it's feels completely unnecessary. Phoenix obviously is not a MSB and they are not doing anything illegal. In my view, their exit from the US app stores is a complete overreaction.

Keep Calm

Could "they" come after wallets, developers, mixers, nodes, LSPs, sidechains, eCash, VPNs, encryption, etc? It's totally possible. But if you're not breaking the law, you have nothing to worry about.

To my knowledge, there is still rule of law in the US, property rights are still protected, and privacy is enshrined in the Bill of Rights (nostr:npub1trr5r2nrpsk6xkjk5a7p6pfcryyt6yzsflwjmz6r7uj7lfkjxxtq78hdpu).

It would be very difficult to change the law or stretch it to incriminate these things because it's all just information and software, which is speech. Some will try. But as they are trying, #Bitcoin is becoming more and more mainstream and integral to the world's financial system.

#Bitcoin is freedom technology and it will continue on.

Go outside this weekend and think about why you're here.

Thanks.

And I presume resale. Sounds cool. Sounds like enjoyable treasure hunting.