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Andrew Mesmer
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Magician and Mentalist, Material Minimalist, Bitcoin Maximalist. Node Runner and Aspiring Shadowy Supercoder. Bitcoin class of 2017.

Nothing like doing a blockchain rescan only to figure out you put in the wrong xpub... Meh.

How many different lightning wallets do you guys flip between? I'm trying to consolidate things but there's so many trade-offs.

The last 365 days have without a doubt made for the most interesting year of my life. Ups and downs, good and bad. Lots of hard lessons learned and many I'm still trying to understand. I've started over so many times that I should be good at it by now, but honestly, even if it gets easier,it never gets easy. Just keep going. Good times might not last forever, but neither do the bad ones.

Austin powers is one of those movies that just gets better with age.

As bitcoiners, we do hard things and act pretty tough most of the time because we have to be. But we are all human. We all have our struggles. Whatever battle you're fighting in secret, know that you don't have to always do it alone. Sometimes you find help in the places you least expect it. I'm sure this community is a good start but also make sure to keep your friends close in the meat-space as well. Being a toxic maximalist is okay but don't let life turn you into a toxic human. Growing is painful. Learn to forgive, not just others but yourself as well.

Life will kick you in the teeth and humble you over and over again. Showing you that you aren't as smart as you thought you were. Learn from it or you will be doomed to repeat your mistakes.

Two days down. One to go. More thinking than working done today. Some questions answered, some new ones posed.

Relax time.

Time feels like it's standing still. Locked in a stalemate. Where do we go from here?

GM. Day two of my little getaway. Perfect weather. I guess If I'm going to be racking my brain I might as well do it in the sunshine.

Don't underestimate the power of giving yourself a break. Even Superman needs the fortress of solitude eventually.

Went to the gym. 6 hours of coding. Cooked myself dinner for the next 4 days. Not a bad first day at all.

Now for a hot bath, and some time alone with my thoughts without any screens in front of me. After that, a movie and a bowl of popcorn all to myself. Might even go to bed early and make sure I get the best sleep I can.

Then tomorrow is another day.

First time in forever that I have a full weekend with a place to myself alone. Hoping to get a lot of work done, doing some self-care, and taking some time to think about life. The past 365 days I've been on such a roller coaster ride feeling like I knew what I wanted in life, having that goal shattered, finding new purpose, having it shattered again... And again. Feels like I've lost the plot in so many ways. Not sure if I'm looking for a sign or an epiphany at this point, but I do know that every time I find that purpose, the drive and determination I get is unmatched. It's time to listen, inward and outward.

Obligatory star wars post

Home is too quiet and the inner demons are too loud. Good day to take the laptop and change the scenery.

Forget the two wolves inside you, this is the real never-ending conflict.

This guy in the sauna is wearing icy hot and it's killing us all.