my Swedish guest's idea of watching Netflix is to put an episode on, fall asleep, wake up again, put another episode on, etc.

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ooh!

oh...

this is an interesting explanation model for psychopathy that i haven't seen before:

https://www.psychiatrictimes.com/view/hidden-suffering-psychopath

psychopathic behaviour as a coping mechanism for deep despair, in a way.

nostr:npub1vrnpfpq6vql4z99kq0crzxg80p9wg5g60szuscac32cy35eldaeshpcf6y med depresjon ser man jo oftere en mangel på handlekraft og at man isolerer seg, men han her gjør nesten det motsatte

nostr:npub1vrnpfpq6vql4z99kq0crzxg80p9wg5g60szuscac32cy35eldaeshpcf6y jeg vil kanskje kalle det bunnløs depresjon - man begynner å handle irrasjonelt og mister sine sperrer. man har liksom krysset en grense.

the Swedish guest is absolutely exhausted. i let him use my computer to find a movie to stream but he fell asleep.

he needed rest but ignored the signals his body was giving him.

hanging out with him down town offers new experiences, but he's not doing it out of a place of confidence.

he seems to have been through this:

- adversity

- depression

- indifference

basically reaching a point where he has shut out his feelings because they were useless to him anyway.

if life doesn't reward you for your good behaviour and best effort, it makes sense to do pick a different strategy. but it's hard to watch, because a person who went down that road is very damaged.

one thing i'm noticing is that he's so accustomed to being in street survival mode that he'll go get a meal from a soup kitchen despite being my guest. he doesn't seem to expect anyone to help him. he's a little too far gone in a way. lost his faith in humanity.

told my Swedish acquaintance he can stay until Monday. i had no set plan for how long he could stay, but "over the weekend" seems about right. he's interesting but also a bit worrying to watch, because he lacks a lot of the mental barriers that most people have. not malicious. more like completely disillusioned and living in survival mode.

i'm witnessing what it looks like when a man has lost all principles

nostr:npub1gnxcgfn80yk2dgkdq6luj4p9cemajz85flcuxrkudlyn7pgya7jq3twfgl you will also get into a lot of conversations with strangers if you're a smoker. it's accepted for smoking people to have a chat.

nostr:npub1gnxcgfn80yk2dgkdq6luj4p9cemajz85flcuxrkudlyn7pgya7jq3twfgl interestingly, observing a Swedish guy doing this in Oslo last night was what prompted the post. but on a Friday or Saturday night in a downtown area or just outside a bar, the social code is different. alcohol also helps people relax.

it's interesting how, when you make it into some kind of inner sanctum, it's rarely as cool as you think. many uninteresting places are only coveted because they're exclusive. it's like winning a race but you don't get to keep the prize after the award ceremony is over.

i'm increasingly of the belief that it's hard to do business or politics successfully without some shady deals behind the scenes. you know something's up when they insist on calling you or meeting in person instead of texting or emailing you, to avoid creating a paper trail, for example. and a lot of business people prefer to have it that way. might be part of the reason why many of them are not big fans of remote work.

"streiting" means something like "normie" in Norwegian

"person who is normal, ordinary, borderline tediously so; average person; square"

it's from English "straight" but has nothing to do with sexual orientation.

it's hilarious how a popular drug dealer can end up having a bigger network than a successful business man. and often also more leverage. sometimes, famous people get into drug debts, and the drug dealer can use this to get what he wants.

one guy i knew some years back managed to get air time on national radio because the host owed some drug money.

there's a lot of dirt hiding under official-looking business.

one of the souvenirs my Swedish visitor brought from Amsterdam - this would be completely illegal in Norway, but in the Netherlands, they're professional enough to have printed brochures

when rich people feel restless, they sail their yacht or fly somewhere.

when poor people feel restless, they become vagabonds. but this takes far more bravery.