I’ve run every Microsoft OS since MS-DOS 6.22.

I think there is a tendency to idealize memories, to look back on them with rose tinted glasses. Windows 95 was one of the best versions of Windows *upon release* in my best attempt at remembering. Windows 98 was broken at release and wasn’t trustworthy until 98 SE.

Windows ME was arguably the worst version of Windows. It famously crashed during Bill Gates’ demo of it. I had the misfortune to run this 98 + Microsoft Plus abomination for over a year.

Windows 2000 Professional was stable, but slow as Christmas. It wasn’t really meant to be used by consumers, so that kinda makes sense.

Windows XP was a good bit faster, but had nightmares with drivers for any hardware released prior (owing to it being a new kernel) and struggled with stability until SP3 and 4.

Windows Vista introduced UAC which was almost universally hated. We still have it, so Microsoft won that one. It actually became fairly useable during its last SP.

Windows 7 was the last major upgrade to the Windows kernel to date. By far the most loved version of Windows, Microsoft focused on security and performance issues. UAC bugs were mostly fixed and the UI was cleaned up. I ran this one through its entire lifecycle and it was a clean OS.

Windows 8 was Windows 7 with an early attempt at making Microsoft relevant in the tablet space. I feel sorry for anyone who endured this. They managed to get everything wrong.

Windows 10 was Windows 7 with aero basically shut off and strangely ran faster on the same hardware very often than Windows 7 did. Gamers seem to love this OS as DirectX became really good around this period and the OS got cleaned up of a lot of bloat.

Windows 11 is Windows 7 with aero turned back on. It continues to unify the UI. Microsoft has mostly innovated on the UI level, and of course added telemetry and online services in the age of Chromebooks and cloud computing. Security has also been a focus, and it’s the first version of Windows I’ve ever been able to run for two years without a third party anti-virus and not had to reinstall.

Windows 12 is shaping up to be the first innovation in the underlying OS made since Windows 7. Indications are it will be an immutable operating system with atomic updates. I expect ARM support will be a primary focus. Microsoft may be late to that party however as ARM licensing has become a nightmare and MS’s primary partner for ARM (qualcomm) is now investing heavily in RISC-V.

Just my two cents on Windows history to add to the conversation. 🤣

Another day at my job. The sun is shining, and that is lifting my mood… at least a little bit 💛

but still, it’s hard for me to get up every day and do a job I really don’t like. I feel stuck, for way too long now. There are days I wake up and could cry, there are days I just fight myself through, and there are days that are okay, but overall, it makes me feel bad. It feels like I am not the person I really am, I can’t express myself the way I want to. I am far away from home. Distracted with things I don’t like. This job is not fulfilling me, and it’s hard for me to not let that affect my private life. I am coming home from work and feeling exhausted, I have a hard time to motivate myself for going outside, caring for my garden, cooking, showering, meeting my fam and friends. All these beautiful things feel annoying. At least yoga is fun atm and releases some tension.

I am at a point where I underestimate my skills. Thats making it difficult to just moving on. I blame myself a lot, for not moving on. Everyday. And still, I am trying my best so the stuff I am working with… works… even with my bad attitude. Something I can be proud of… ugh it’s destroying me. Finding a new job is harder than I thought. The job education I accomplished is nothing I like to do all day, it does not fulfill me. I don’t feel like starting another 3 year job education. I feel unskilled for every job application I am interested in, I am at the beginning of my twenties. My dream is it to work on my own… but it’s much work to actually do it. And that’s where my mind is when I think of the next years. I am missing a lot of energy. I feel weak, like never before. Writing this is giving me energy.

Days like these show me that I have to take action. I am the only person that can guide myself. I am responsible for me. All these negative feelings are pushing me out of my comfort zone, urging me to move. But it is still difficult for me to move on… I don’t know… I am facing one of life's challenges... it’s getting better.

Waking up in the morning and actually wanting to wake up, no more days where I want to bury myself between pillows in my bed. The great amount of love and joy that I feel for life wants to be unconditionally shared. All of that will come back to me. And I am getting closer to that every day. I believe in myself. Push those walls, break through. Visions are highly set.

Any advice is welcome 💜 Thank you for your time. And yeah I know I could be grateful for having a… job…, but… I am fighting here for a really really long time and I don’t know how long I can keep up a positive attitude anymore… honestly I can’t. I don’t like the upset me. I am tired of blaming myself for not just moving on and try something new.

I can’t keep that in my mind anymore so I wanted to share it with the world. Maybe someone is fighting the same fight, you’re not alone and you will break yourself out of these chains, just like me… very soon… building strength. 💜

Oh look, a White american 25-yo.

Also can we talk about how that bitch is 90 lbs sopping wet? They don't have to grab the bat when they can just throw her over their shoulder like a a bag of rock salt.

How does Trump still have fans?